Seven.

2009-06-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

GUESS what , i find a way to get into this fcking blogger and able to blog 1 time.
hahahahaha...2nd of june - 12th of june . very fast right.?
there are really some memories left in my mind . i need to think all the ex2/7 people to acompany me . i should..say something to all of you. nvm , 1 by 1 then.
Brandon- i put you at first because i live in your house for the past 2 times le . i thank you a lot. we go out together , go your house together , we took cab and talk.at night you will ask me to go bathe faster , dun use comp so much , smoke less .you play your psp and you will ask me if there is anyone that i wanna call . we always call aihui right? and jiahui and xiaohei some times la . i think i should really thank you . trust me,you are always in my heart bro(: Go Cut your Hair lah.KB
Ting He-xiao hei er ren zu . go bomb little india and t3 la . so that i cannot go back anymore.thank you so so so much for just staying together with me every single day.we go suntec , go orchard , go anywhere also , i got you i feel safe . i not gay kk? although on 12 you didnt wake up and yet me and brandon early early go find you , you still use your fastest speed to come down and go airport together.
thank you so much bro . there is so much things i wan to tell you.bro thank you for your understanding and thank you and brandon with that Blue Ace Zippo.
YuanSheng-bro . although you didnt send me to airport on the last day , but then nvm.i still have to thank you for letting me stay at your house for 2days.i smoke downstairs.haha.then you kb me say got smell.i bathe in your house . its wonderful lahh.but I warn you hor.DON'T EAT CHICKEN RICE INFRONT ME WHEN I WAS SLEEPING.
JiaHua-bro thank you for stay with me everyday , we smoke together although you didnt buy la . and i seriously wan fuck you nia.nvm la.thank you for playing with me , dota . pool , smoke and we say things together . please take care.
QinQuan-lanjiao kia . now you getting more and more handsome le seriously . hahaha . i didnt say it infront you later you syg . haha.thanks for going sentosa .
John-jibai sia you , you are really a fucker.a big fucker.say til so good we go brandon house then we drop blood be real brother , when i smoke you go take a bus and run away . you fucker sia you . i miss you so much now k? you better come back and online msn .. man i cant live without you .
HongJian-Bro.you are getting more mature.thanks for staying with me everyday single day. i know that you wanted to gift me something right? but its okay lah . we both know whats the problem.when i sec 2 kena by school you always there with me . i tio , you wait me , you tio , i wait you.this is call brother.these are not fake de .miss you from bottom of my heart.
Yeekeat-thanks for staying with me every single day.thank you very much . going raffles is fun .(:
ChiKiat-lols,maple kia , i tell you , actually your hairstyle really very cool.haha.stay handsome k.and thanks for coming out almost everyday.
Yongrui-i don't really need a friend that put stead infront of brother . no man.one day you will understand , stead can dun have , but brother cannot dun hab. i got so many bros.because i wont because of girl and left them behind .
Nic-thanks for coming out k , eat less less.get more fit.
THE girls.
Jiahui-thanks for coming out lah , you getting more chio le seriously , thank you so much for coming out . we go raffles , suntec and many many place.thanks so much for that present . it really make me cry.thanks for putting so much effort.
Camilia-xiaohei , you cannot come out everyday but i still happy la .. can see your face.you ask me dun smoke so much , if want to cry then think about you.i understand le.thanks for that present.and online every weekend k.i miss you . thanks for the present and our 1 year (:
Jessin-kit kat.thanks uh..for coming out almost everyday. hahaha(:
Samantha-thanks for coming out too.(: if you really love some one then go for it.
Fucking tired . i update more next time k.

2009-02-16T10:23:00.000-08:00

let me look at the time , its 2:24am now .and i just cant get into sleep.feel like blogging so again i turn on the comp and start writting .
just now when i was almost get into sleep,i suddenly feel like looking at some of the letters that you all wrote to me . its from peishi , suhui , shuwen , jiahui and adlyn.looking at those letters suddenly makes me feel that it was happened just like yesterday , but its already over for 2 and half years.
i really need to thank shuwen because the 2 letters you wrote to me really do help me with my life.when i feel down i will think about what you wrote to me and sometimes it do makes me feel much better (: jiahui with the 184 hearts , 182 white and 2 are red , its touches me in some way and for the letter , i read it over and over . thanks , with much love (:
peishi , you and suhui didnt write many things to me but i think it will still in my mind.because what you wrote really makes me regret . regret that i didnt study . i should at least be a normal student in anderson so i will at least be in sec 4 with my friends now. felt so lonely and depressed.
i need a pair of listen ears , i really do need.

2009-02-12T07:52:00.000-08:00

Cam,Happy 8 Month (:
its have been so long that i didnt update my blog by my self . finally . today , i am blogging our 8 month aniversary by my self (: .
camilia , i know its been so long that we have not been chatting . and sometimes i online , you offline , just like now , you weekdays cant use comp so we only have a little times to see each other online and i know its not your fault (: many things have changed , i understand a lot of logic now and i can see that you are growing up. hahaa , hope you are still black yea? RANDOM , i know.
nothing much to say already . anyway there is a good news , you all know that there is a exam called IELTS?anyway this exam is super damn hard kae? i have to work on it properly , the best result i get and if i finish my study now in beijing , and go for a proper class then go for A level . the final destination is - SINGAPORE.
YES.i am going back to singapore after 2 years , probably on 2011.its that , thats my aim . LOL,then i will go NUS.i know its crazy , but for you all . my friends , and myself . i have to work on it yeah?
Happy 8 month camilia(:
ZSY(:

2009-02-10T05:24:00.000-08:00

Changed to laptop.

Going to beijing is like 10 days more . so today changed to laptop . -.- like no link leh.

its because going to beijing then need to bring laptop so now use laptop to do things already , must get everything xiguan for myself(:

today online MSN as usual , then like no ppl online lehh . wth is happening , heard that time is delaying after i left ,like 2 10 finish school ? and 5 o clock ? OMG.thats sounds so tiring . lols , you all have to work hard by now already right ?

June is coming all the way , i feel so happy and excited , many things is going to start in my BRAIN!!! but i don't know for june if i can really go because everything is not confirmed by my parents , but i already told them once there is chance then let me go . and they of course agreed (:

There are serval problems now in my mind.where should i stay if i go ?? brandon house again ? i am afraid his parents is not going to agree. can you guys come out again ? there is N level . fucks , i am so scared.):

anyway , hope everything will be fine after all lahh.

ZSY(:

with all the little wishes.

2009-02-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

Time passes so quickly,
today is my bday , its should be joyful day , but seriously ,end up its so sad.i keep
thanking ppl those wish me on msn , but actually i am really depressed.
last night chated with peishi on msn , i don't know its the memory that in my mind keep
making me or me making my self , i didnt sleep well at last , was dreaming about her . then woke up with a bad dream about getting her out of my hand , its seems like a joke . but its true.i am sorry.
Had many problems with problem , i really don't know whats going on with my family . many stuff happening . i don't know what wrong with my mum and dad , i don't know by this moment shall i still call him dad . because from what my mum said , he did many fcuking stuff to my mum , when i heard this i wanna take a knife and kill him . although he get me older by educating me . but i dont know . i am really confused.hai.shuwen uhhh , what should i do ?
anyway , it is still my birthday after all . there are serval ppl i have to thank to . not in order uhh. peishi , johntan , jiahua , yongrui , chikiat , cindy,meiyan,meiru,ting he , qingquan , camilia.adrian,xiaoling,barathan,samantha,aihui , yuansheng .
ZSY (:

2009-02-08T04:48:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday john (:
wah lau , today john birthday lehh , 1 year once uh . everybody must clap clap , lols , like whos birthday 1year twice.-.-
anyway , happy birthday lah john tan , don't say i boxim then nv ssay happy birthday to you k ? topic big big happy birthday john ,
reb our sec 1 time mahh ? we take 88 , take bus , buy bag . tio taiji . a lot lahh , mix with xiaobing , aldric , my brothers , then gt problem with davis , i tell you something about peishi . then we talk together about my study if i can still stay in singapore .
its really nice lahh , the time , but we are still kidd that time , not like now , we have our own friends , maybe someday you will forget me , but i think i wont forget you nehh.~
rmb the times i ask you go amk hub , then we slack , we eat opposite of your house . see the ah gua . then we laugh ,
see other secondary ppl will diao them , do a lot silly stuff lahhxsz,
dont talk so much jiaowei liao .

Bro i miss the times we had before . the chicken rice at bishan , you still rmb?
love you , armani siyuan . Happy birthday.
ZhangSiyuan(:

2009-01-31T09:34:00.000-08:00

blog is like half dead now . more accurately ,its already dead . i have not been updating for the past few months , i am so sorry about that and i saw so many ppl coming to my blog and tag me , i felt happy (:
was on bed and ready to sleep just now but still got up and try to write something out now.i am on my holiday,19th of jan i got out of school then i went to many other place in china . yesterday i arrived xinjiang.
school in beijing really happened many many things.most of them are really bad.but when it comes to holiday , i really feel happy because its time for me release my self.learned so much things in china and its really different from the past that i used to be in singapore.
i can feel that i am changing.i am growing , i hope the rest of you can grow too . of course , in a good way .
didnt online msn for such a long time because i really dont have time to do so . i don't know why my partner and my friends are not showing up on msn as before.felt very lonely.anyway , thanks partner for being there for me , help me to blog so many times , and i am really sorry because on 7 month anniversary i didnt show up.
i hope you guys can online msn more and chat with me more (:
anyway , happy new year (: all the best wishes to you.

7th in advance ;

2009-01-11T01:43:00.000-08:00

HIIIIII, Cam here :D
Okay, 12th tmr, blog for you first cause i wont be using computer during the weekdays ):

HAPPY 7TH in advance PARTNER! :D (L)
-Yes, 7th month, thats quite a long period of time les partner :) In a flash, its 2009 now, and i really really hope to see you this year, try your best kay! BBQ-ing at Brandon's house last year, it was real F-U-N :) I really cannot describe how much fun we had. I know i keep asking you to online but im not talking to you much, im sorry. I promise, no more next time kay :) Online, other people want to talk to you too! Everybody's missing you im sure!

With lots of love,

Camilia :)

2008-12-19T03:48:00.000-08:00

i am finally back on blogger again . borrowed a computer from one of mine.then have the time to chat here , but when i online msn , no one is online , so sian lohh.

nothing much still . update a pic of mine.

2008-12-13T20:35:00.000-08:00

very long time nv use chinese to update le . shall use chinese to update this time.
首先.谢谢的我的LES PARTNER帮我UPDATE喔..^_^.
已经很久没有这么累过了..这次不止是学习上面累..感觉回到中国后,整个人都变了...中国是个复杂的社会.人跟人不一样.我们这里没有信任.总之很烦,没有特别的原因./觉得自己好像颓废了.
\ 最近一直听JAY的说好的幸福呢. 觉得这首歌虽然好听,但是已经失去了意义.没有什么特别的心意.我个人推荐给我一首歌的时间.觉得这个很不错.JAY的感觉也全部到了我的心里.
写到这里突然想起了PS.记得那时候我追她好像很辛苦,,现在想想都已经是过去了.没有什么能把我带到以前了.也没有什么原因能让我回到以前.
lols,still use english better ,not so tired.last time in AND still skip school lahh whatever , thinking about now . its seems so normal.skip school.tio taiji , then smoke , drink.normal.
okay lahh.nothing much . a bbit rush , shall update good good next time.

6th months! :D

2008-12-12T05:24:00.000-08:00

Im here, again.
As usual, im here to blog because its the 12 already, how fast.
So...

HAPPY 6TH MONTH PARTNER! :D ♥
-Please leh, ONLINE ONLINEEEEEEE cannnn. Never talk to you for ages already you know! ): Your blog rotting already lah! And dont worry, i still miss you that much okay! Wahahaha ^^ Faster online and blog okay okay? HEHE :D Loves (L)

Love, Camilia :)

Your DEAREST partner, HAHAHA.

♥

2008-11-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

many unexpected things happened.
lost many many things.people seldom talking to me on msn le .
i already left there for 1 year . then what else can i do ? scold you for not calling me ?lols,childish.you can call or not call . its your freedom . even idiot know that a card is 10 dollar then you cant just use the 10 dollar to call me . funny , really funny.
sometimes,taking mrt in beijing . thinking of the time we spend together on the train . so much fun , john and i , ting he going marina bey and all the way to bishan . lols.with pp. so much fun.

nth to say anymore . many many things are in my heart.

2008-11-12T03:21:00.000-08:00

I am here to say:
HAPPY 5TH MONTH PARTNER! :D ♥
-HAHAHA, 5th month and still counting yoh. Walao, why everytime you cannot post yourself, every 12th of the month must be I post de leh ): Tsk, but nevermind, just online moreeeee, although must choose topic to talk, but at least better than nothing right, haha :) Loveee. Okay, bye :D

♥Camilia, Your Dearest Partner

(HAHAHAHA) :D

2008-11-07T03:14:00.000-08:00

2008-11-01T04:28:00.000-07:00

2008-11-01T04:24:00.000-07:00

2008-11-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

Shall update some pics of mine.-.-

2008-11-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

yohh . i am finally back here on blogger again . its my 150th post .Lol.nice sia , finally 150.next next week is me and my partner 5 month le . wah lao . very fast loh.5 month le.the day before yesterday is the day i left singapore for 1 year.
i didnt know what i did on that day , because i skiped 2 lesson for the afternoon because of fucking relationship problem , and i dont want to see her face , look so sian and disguesting.
i am sorry to use disguesting this word because after all i still loved her before right.but then when love changed to hate , sometimes it only needs like 1 -2 hours.lol.
actually there is nothing to blog about lohh.its just that i am very sian.and not really many ppl chating with me on msn.so i didnt really online long.like no topic?
maybe its because too long nv see each other then no topic , for all i dont want this to happen.hais.so please do talk lot to me so we can habb a good time chatting ,Lols,
okay lahh , thats all from me.
love my friends lots,

2008-10-25T20:41:00.001-07:00

blog was dead yesterday.wanted to find the problem but then could not find it . wtf lols, hmms.solved this stupid problem with one friend of mine , he is kind of computer genius. i should tell the steps then , i saw the title part . its like accidently saw it loohh.then i say , hehh , why the title part infront got < but then the behind one boh,lols.then he put < , then still cannot , he tried to put《/, then can liao.LOL.what stupid problem lohh.like this one symbol the whole blog went dead.-.- thank partner for the help yesterday , although i scolded you the day before you still care about me.LOL.thats what really partner means.its partner.although its LES.-.- many unexpected thing happen ., i fall in love with a girl .-.- again.and i love her much , this time i think its really different , its just like the time i like peishi , this time its more yan zhong.when i sleep , i will dream about her . its really the true love. friday on msn , on-ed many thing . but then she is just like \dun give a damn ,i wrote something for her , but then she viewd , she nv say anything.whats going on , i know she like me , but what the fuck is she avoiding? anyway , its done.i slept at 4 plus last night because i cannot ge into sleep and i just watching movie like crazy.-.- anyway , its not porn.kkae.? i smoked a lot during this days and drink a lot , its not juice uh , its beer and white wine.dizzy is just crazy , anyway ,just wanna say sorry to partner , sorry i am huring my self . but i promise this type of thing wont happen many times in my life, i am sorry about it . sorry to shuwen too . i know many things happened in ur life.fucking stupid life problem ., but you know what , i am here as a bro . i nt paikia , but when something happen to you , if i at singapore i shall call everyone i know and help you out.its just like , now i am here in china . i will help you too , i wan you to stay happy , whatever family problems , fuck it . okay? we fuck it. just dun give a shit , when something happen to you , think about the times you spend with your friends,whatever you do , worth it.but your family dont know that , okay?because they only have normal life , we aren't same , we are brother and sister , we live differently.we spend time with the ppl we like , if not , what for live? just because of some stupid problems , in life there are still many things going to happen , dun get fucked by the problem now okay?i do miss you my sis . i love you.(:
Special thanks to Shuwen , and my dearest Partner ♥

2008-10-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

hello, im camilia blogging for him again :D

HAPPY 4TH MONTH PARTNER! :D ♥
(sorry ah, largest already! LOL! :D)
you must try and online everyday ah! :D HAHA. yay.

2008-10-10T05:24:00.000-07:00

tml going back bj le . phew , everything is so fast lohh , just like it happen 10 min ago , i enjoyed my holiday , its fast , 21days.actually for me i dun wanna any holiday , because holiday is always meaningless to me , i dun have friend in xinjiang , so everyday just sit infront the comp , thinking all the stupid things that i have done in beijing and sg , always think think the very scare le . i dun know why too.lols,strange huh.
chat many many times with camilia , ting he , shuwen , meiyan , well . (: everybody is still same lor , no body changed much.bro hongjian is still the same too.anyway , sorry i cant go for your birthday , very sorry , i know you can spon me 300 dollars , but i just wanna tell you its really not enough, i dun wan just for my attending will cost you so much money , i cant take it . you should take the 300 dollars to buy something you like , no matter what , we still brothers right? for everything you always with me deh , i go sg , you spend with me everyday , you is the only one who stay with me at brandon house , i know that clearly better than anyone.\
from all these things i know that you are a really good bro to me , but we also have to grow up.in life , we cant just do whatever we like , some times we cant changed it , might as well just obey it .
seriously , i do miss the times we are together in sg . but i just wanna tell you , i know that sec 3 work is very hard , and you know if i continue stay there , this year i will still come back to china . i will be in 3/7 , 3 /7 already got john they all , what will happen if i am there?school will expell me very very soon , i signed so many contract with school , every small mistake , i will kena . you know it.(: sorry. hope you can understand it.
i will be online everyday using mobile msn.so do take care everybody , ♥

2008-10-09T04:44:00.000-07:00

ily camilia♥
hahaaaaa.okay lah , i want to write big big okay!
hmms.told you many things last night , then you put afk.-.- dulaned..i still just wanna say , its just a exam lahh , if you didnt do it well . do it well next time lahh.tot everything is okay , then you suddenly say , what is the use of doing well.
then i bwg lohh , tot you wes a very good girl , should understand many thing.end up telling you why we are living on this world . if there is only succes in the world , then what for we live?might as well go die . so boh liao . right?think it properly lohh.anyway , if you still 想不通then talk to me lohh , i dun wan a good girl just go waste like that . xiaohei , cheer up narhh! i am here , so are your friends.
anyway ,. happy lahh , the exams are over.good norhh, holiday coming , but then i have to go back , .. i will be online every single day deh , i got mobile.hahahaas.
chat with xinlin yesterday . hahaha , so long nv chat then got a lot thing to say norh :X
then nothing to do le . watche lanqiuhuo . sian sia , update till 11 then dun have le . i wanted to see the next match that xiaozhu and that 残 deh match.-.-
went out 2 days , then bought 2 things.converse shoe and adidas jacket.LOL.end up spending 1000 rmb.sian , wanted to buy a big . but then nvm lahh.funds problem again.
the next year funds wont be a problem anymore thats what my father told me , if really okay , will be going to sg twice a year , june holiday , and december holiday . hahhaa.`
i miss many many ppl , shall list the names out.
Adrian , john , hongjian , menghwee , qq, shuwen , camilia,aihui , jiahui , ck , cherbeng , aldric , jiahua , xinlin , meiyan , brandon.okays thats all the names in my head for just this second.lols.

2008-10-07T01:27:00.000-07:00

wanted to blog yesterday.but then chat with meiyan for the whole morning so didnt have time to blog.so just haved some time to blog now.my holiday is going to finish , cant use comp le . but then i will online msn everyday . because i got mobile . i will set my online time at 5pm and 8pm.
I dun know how well have you all been , but i am still fine.with nothing much , relationship is getting out from my world.i am happy , for the first time.really happy , because there is no more trouble . i could finally smoke with no more care , thats the life.but for my brothers and the one i love i will promise to smoke lesser.
i still miss singapore a lot.i dun know why for the past 1 month i always dream abt singapore .maybe its time for me to go back again . anyway , there is some good news , my mother told me from next year onwards.i can go to sg twice a year . thats is the june holiday and december holiday.
this year cannot its because my family have some problem with the funds.sorry guys.
okays thats all for today ya , i will update for the next 4days.

2008-09-25T02:11:00.000-07:00

i got time to blog le . phew...
its holiday time again and i am back to xinjiang . anyway , i got a long way here , i sat on a train just like mrt ( without bed) , just sit there for 3 days and i am back in xinjiang , i saved 1400 for my mum and she is happy about that , there goes my Levi's. Haha.
had my exam last week . i also dun know how i did for the whole exam . what i know is for maths i left it blank . because i cant understand , there is so many graph , end up i take the papers write names and same picture of my self . ( i drew it) . for Business paper , i tot the exam is simple , and end up i left it blank too . for the other subject its great . i have no question with all of them.
i changed hp again ,. tired of using 5310.stupid phone . always when i chat chat half way then no batt . fck it.changed to Dopod S1.windows mobile . i spend 3 days taking to my dad and he exchanged it with me .OH yay!
chat with partner . qingli . yongrui . and many other ppl . dun know also , i forgot .
alright i shall blog all this today , will blog again tomolo. thanks partner .

I Love Camilia SEE qianyi.3 Month and Still counting.

2008-09-12T06:07:00.001-07:00

hahaha, camilia here yohs :D

HAPPY 3RD MONTH PARTNER :D ♥
you faster update lah you, hahaha :D
okay thats the largest already. HAHAHA. :D

bye:D

2008-08-09T21:40:00.000-07:00

2008-08-09T21:34:00.000-07:00

long time again since i didnt blog . So many days past.i had many dreams . many many , some times i thought i am back to SG but when i wake up , and realise everything is dream .
had my 'CA' too . the result is okokay still . wanted to blog last night because i hafe the feeling but end up i didnt because reached home around 1 and i slept after that . too tired , sorry anyways ,
i can finally upload all the photos because the internet is allowed . i shall update them now since i can . anyway . imisseverybody . ily qianyi . <3 .
our 2 month is coming . ! happy in advanced.

2008-07-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

Happy 1 Month to Me and my Partner , Camilia see qianyi !

today finally have the mood to blog because not so many ppl around me . came to lan at 9 . but then its like blur blur de , last night sleep at 3 i think . sian ... chat with adrian awhile , viewed ps blog then did nothing ,
going back soon just come here for a short blog . many things happened now a days , i break with my stead , because i think she is going over seas soon , and i cant do anything ,
i am doing fine here , but just still smokes a lot and i dun know how to controll my self . because many things happened and i am so stress out . but i will try my best not to do anything that hurt my self or my love ones.

2008-06-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow i am leaving for beijing , blog will be update once a week that is promised.wanna say something just tag and you can also msn me offline.i will be replying asap.take care all.

2008-06-20T07:31:00.000-07:00

1)At what age do you wish to get married?
√ Maybe 27?
2)Study hard or Play hard?
Play Hard lahh.
3)Who is the person you trust most?
My mother
4)Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yes.
5)If you have a dream come true , what would it be?
Hmm.Have a chance to go back singapore to study again
6)What is your idea of a friend?
No matter what happen , will always be together.
7)What is your goal this year?
To be Slim.
8)Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes , thats why ppl get married mahh.dumb question
9)If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
Get a Fucking big house so that all my friends can live with me.
10)If time were to unwind , what would you want to change?
Get a better result so i can still in Andss
11) Balloons or Candy?
Ballons.
12)What feelings you hate the most?
The fear.
13) What is your childhood ambition?
To be a Star.
14)Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.
15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends.
16)Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you
Family
17)People who are going to be hated by you?
Ppl who have Fucking AP.
18)Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Aihui is a cute , pretty , skinny , stupid, lame girl
19)Do you deserve to be loved?
Yes.everybody does.
20)What are you doing now?
You think lehh , dumb question again

2008-06-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

how many days nv blog liao . i dun know . blur .. sleepy . going to beijing soon .
i dun know what to blog . Very Sian .
chat with meiru , rui , camilia , birdy , adrian , aihui yesterday , then went to sleep. felt so lonely when at night . nb.
i still cant upload pics because the sign just dun come out , i also cannnot do anything .
i think the worst thing is once i go beijing then we will lost contact . i don't use comp anymore . only Got Hp.but then you all seldom call me de . so i dun know la . i will try to online more.
my toe yesterday full with blood , so shiok..then i walk like ting he liao .
viewd yongrui blog . nt bad uh , tot your blog skin will be like luo zhi xiang de , but then end up you put Jay as your blog skin .LOLXSZ. hows ur hair uh , still so short uh , mine getting long again . hahaa . hope next time you all see me , my hair wont because of a fucking hair dresser then all gone .
thats all la , very tired , maybe night blog again ba .

2008-06-14T08:04:00.000-07:00

好久好久已经没有用中文来写东西了.今天突然想写感觉怪怪的.但是还是用中文吧.因为可能比较能容易表达自己的感情.
离开你们已经差不多5天了.回想看看.我们其实在一起的日子真的过的很快.5天过的很快,但是我们却做了很多东西,拥有了很多回忆.不知道你们怎么想,自己的心里说实话还是很不好受,现在还是在后悔当初没有好好学现在我们分离,1年才能见一次.很多人我们好像已经失去了以前的那份感情,他们不会关心,不会懂得什么叫失去.我不怪你们,在你们心里我真的不重要.这里我说的是谁你们自己都应该知道.有没有来见我,还是见了我就立即的离开.我不想多说什么,我在的时候那么照顾你们,你们现在是这样的,我想不到,更接受不了.只有时间让我把你们这群人忘记.永远的忘记.
在这里还是要再次谢谢很多人.我还是想说.十分感谢,到了那里你们让我忘记了一些痛,一切失去的痛苦.
首先还是要谢谢BRANDON,没有你,这次可能真的没有这么快乐.我在你们家住了5天,还记得我们3点叫MAC?一起看电视,一起玩,一起BBQ.回忆我会收藏在心里.永远的祝福你的家人和你.以后我还有去新加坡的时候,我答应会给你带个你喜欢的礼物.很谢谢你!
还有是要谢谢HJ,谢谢你一直陪我.一直陪我5天.我们还是像兄弟一样.虽然我走了,你没有多说什么,但是我知道,我们心里面都不舒服,我们都是属于那种有话不想说的人.我也永远祝福你.我们永远都是好兄弟.
谢谢所有人让我在那里有了那么多快乐.Aihui , Jiahui , Shuwen , Camilia , QinQuan , YuanSheng , MengHwee , Yee KEAT , Samantha , Jessin , Ting he , JOHN , Jiahua .
JOHN 我和你的东西我们还是在MSN上面说吧.我们的东西太复杂,太累.你没变,我也没变.
今天还是写这么多吧.永远祝福你们

2008-06-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

woke up at 9 plus to watch NBA , thought Lakers could win the match , but then its like wtf , they still lost even they have a lead since at the starting , its like 26 points infront . wtf?
after that my parents went out because i ask them to do so cos i wan to stay in my house just alone . waited my stead to online so that we can chat , but then i wait her until is like 3 plus then she online , chat more than 30 min , then she said she have to go . so i went to play basketball my self . when i come back , saw that i finish downloading kung fu panda and 老师嫁老大.i wanted to watch but then dun know got wad TOOT error said that i cant watch , then the mood is like WTF again . omfg .
went to read a book , the book is about how to build up self-confidence . read like maybe 2 hour . LOL. i am such a good boy.
anyway , as you all can see , i have changed my blog skin , and the les partner-camilia help me to change de lohhhhhh , thank you so much my partner , muacks~
anyway back to my journey , i went to double-click to the movie again , then can watch le . my mood is like wtf again . OMG!haha . today the wtf so many times sia . Here to grats that Mr.Lam Hong Jian has bought the Nike dunk . LOLS.first time buy Nike Dunk uh , some more must take picture for me to see uh . Anyway , its a nice shoe man , Grats!
okay la . thats all for today , tml i think i am going to drive again . HAHA! blog will be update again tml . sorry that here the blogger toot de . because the sign of insert picture just dun come out ~

2008-06-12T08:32:00.000-07:00

okays . 2 days since i have left singapore . well . i am still okay , just that some times will have some mood swings . messaged with my stead for all day long . then she said the first act she gonna do when we met is to hug me and say hey stupid i miss you so much . ! wahh , so sweet .
last night , one person go watch soccer , but then when the game had just start 8 min then hab a goal , so i shout so loud that my dad had woke up and watch the game together with me . but since the first half finish then i go sleep le , he watch finish the whole game !
sry uh , my english is like this de , as long as you all can understand can le . china is so hot here , my father cooked dinner for me and end up when i finish the meal i drank 4 bottles of water and eat 2 ice pop . wa lau . so hot so hot.
here to thanks Eileen see for the 127 meals . and i still do reb wad i order lawls . the bloodly eyeballs for $8.90 ( thas the real name of the drink ) . chicken and prawn combo ($24.90). woo . thanks uh . i eat until damn full . waaaa .
yesterday and today chat quite long with birdy girl ( jessin) . heizai(camilia) i and camilia are now les partner . WOO . because of ting he , ting he so stupid can be camilia's bro . why cant i become camila de les partner . wa hahaa .
okays la . thats al for today . i will be update again tml ~

2008-06-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

Finally can blog le . but then there is still so problem with my blogger , i dun know why , anyway , i am back in china now . jiahui , shuwen , yeet kiat , adrian , brandon , camilia , hongjian send me to airport . hais..finally , we are now apart . i am so sad . really so depressed .
reb the 5 days we had before? BBQ. go to play ground , call mac at 3am , eat at 5am? eileen treat us for the NEW YORK . my bloody eye balls , they are still so clear in my mind , i just keep thinking and thinking . i dun know why , maybe i am still a kid . still so childish , i should be growing up . Sorry!
i am sorry for wad i done in the past 2 years. i have not been working hard . thats why we are now in the different place differnet country . but then i am still feeling much better now . because we still got the chance to see each other .
anyway , my blog will be still be the same to update everyweek , but as for the next 10 days i will be updating everyday since i am still on the holiday . thanks jiahui for the present and shuwen for the letter . i read them when i was on the plane . in the end , i still cried . sorry again . i should not be crying
okay la , we will still have the chance to see each other and chat more often on msn . anyway i still miss you all so much . i love all of you . i love the time we hab been spend together . !

2008-06-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

Random post . blog will be update on thursday . tml 9:45am de flight . at T1.thursday will update wad happen in 3 days.(will be update with photo)

2008-06-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

Out wib them to raffles.
samesame
Me and jiahui
random taking . aihui and jiahui
four of us again

2008-06-06T09:41:00.000-07:00

2008-06-06T09:26:00.000-07:00

something wrong with the world?
wad happen to every body ? 8 month , we have been apart for 8 month , but why cant you guys just stay for like 10 - 20 mins? 8 month we have been not seeing each other , then give a lot excuese to just leave me around ? make me lose face ? wads wrong with you all ?
i hab nothing to say , but i just think i am so stupid . i always think that i am very important to ppl , but end up ie am just cheatting my self .
i am so disapointed and tired

2008-06-05T00:17:00.000-07:00

2008-06-04T17:51:00.000-07:00

woke up at 6 . since hab nothing to do so come here do some blogging...very boring . hongjian and brandon beside me but all still sleeping . i think i was the first one who sleep last night because the before yesteday i slept at 6am.
yesterday went to school to see friends.meet aihui qingli jiahui camilia sunita uday.most of them la . anyway . aihui didnt really change a lot . but jiahua sstill very chio . ^^ happy mahh?
saw peishi in the morning . i was like so shocked that she didnt even change anything . the hairstyle the bag . the way she walk . the way she smile . exactly the same as 8 month back .
saw xinlin also . but she didnt say hi to me . her memory very lousy hor . dun know who is siyuan
didnt see any teacher because i think there is a stupid camp so there is no teacher . but end up still cant go in . wtf? i cant even get a visitor pass for my self .
today will maybe meet adrian chia . and all the guys . the planing is still not confirmed . but tonite i will upload some pics .

2008-04-26T03:44:00.000-07:00

lols. i came to blog again.tml going to guangzhou to make passport le . confirm going to sg during june,thats a good news!
yesterday chat wib hj ,shuwen , qq and john . i know you guys are doing fine . i am really very happy about that . hahas~anyway i dye my hair back le .its black now . because i dun like that colour so much so i want to change to black.
i know that hj is getting more paikia . but seriously speaking . i dun know what to do , because i know that for him . i am forever a bad bro . i didnt do the right thing and of course . i leave him alone.
i am sorry , i dun know what to do also . without you . i will be sad too.but will you just let life carry on like that ? or turn into a new leaf and prove to your friend that you can do it better?
june i am going . you said you are going to change school.because of your fucking result so your aunty going to change for you . yes . maybe you can online msn 24hours . but will you be happy?leave all your friends. your brothers?
i hope you will really do some changes . i love you bro , hope you will know that .

anyway , this post is just for you . call me more . i wont say that i always hab message because i just break wib my stead . sry.

2008-04-18T02:30:00.000-07:00

Again . very long le hor? how all of you doing?
read some post from xinlin and peishi . seems that everyone is very busy now ? maybe .
i am fine in beijing . no much changes , just that hair changed colour and dont like to talk so much as compare to before .
actually . i dun know if i am okay . its just that . no matter wad happen around me . it just relate everything to you guys . and i am so fucked up .
heard that miss lim has left the school . i miss her very very much . when i was in sg . she is just like a mother to me . i still reb that i was very noisy and naughty in her class .and when my father came to sg . she didnt complain anything to my father and yet to encourage me to get a b etter grade .
since i have left sg . i wanna say is . since sec 1 onwards . i nv get 50 for my english . when there is 50 . i dun know how much i get for my real marks . but all i know is she add some marks to my final to let me stay on in sg . and now she is gone , i lost contact wib her . i am really sad . i hope some of you could help me to get her number and give me a chance to call her . when i go sg . i want to see her also . talk as long as i can .
plans to sg . adrian said i could stay in his house . so this will cut down a lot of costs . the planing is 7 or 8 june i am probably going . so i am going if there is no mistakes or anything happen.
i find these days very hard in china . but i will still go on .

anyway . i think i will blog maybe 1 week at a time . so get some time and check out wad am i doing . thanks.

2008-04-04T02:55:00.000-07:00

wahhs.so long so long so long nv come here to blog le . very busy these days.
hongjian . shuwen and a lot ppl call mi . i very very happy . tytytyty.
actually i dun know wad to write le .
heard that davis and ps break uhs ? is it real?lols . just wan to know only . i dun care much too .

xinlin now dun care about mi sia . msn also no reply . tag also bo reply . i left then forget mi le . sob sob ..

hongjian . mai everytime also wan to whack mi la . kbkp.lools. if i really go there . will yo really whack mi ? or wan to pei mi every minute?haahas.brother i miss you ..

shuwen . thanks alot . you called mi a lot of times horrr.haha. xiexie . i really miss all the girls . i dun know if jiahua hab become more pretty not . i hope so la . hahaha..

qingli . you all dun keep making the orki la . later she angry . use orki shoot you uhs . LOLLLLLLLLL~

tinghe . thanks for the jay album lehh . got signature de uhs /. thanks . i dun know hows miss tan . but in my life i really dun wanna see her again .

john tan . i dun know you this jibai will read my blog not . but i really miss you a lot . hahaha . alot brother . these days your face keep appearing in my dream lehhs. think all the things we did before .

reb my 15 years old birthday ? thanks for the curry la . pobor.i miss you .~

valerie . take careee la . no much to say . i know you miss mi alot . i miss you a lot too . haha . lai . here muack yige for you . lol.s

2008-03-14T02:51:00.000-07:00

wahhs , its like so long nv come here to blog le . i hope everybody miss mi nrhh!.hahas. i wanted to ask everybody hows their life . but its like . no one care about mi . wtf?
i will be online only during april . sry .

2008-02-19T23:47:00.000-08:00

MIA from 22 Feb.

2008-02-08T19:40:00.000-08:00

今天是我生日.本来有很多很多的东西要說.但是你们不在我的身边.我感到很悲伤.
5年来我一直都是在新加坡過的生日.今年在这里過.很不舒服.但是人的一生不可能一帆风顺,不是嘛?
16岁了.想想說,在过去的一年里面很失败.但是想起去年的2月9号.呵呵,真的很开心,我相信也是我一辈子里面最开心的一次.还记得吃RECESS的时候,你们全部都不知道去哪里了.然后我买了面条坐下来吃.只吃到一半..下面就不用說了.呵呵,也忘记了那个到底是誰的主意.
马上要去北京了.大概还有10天.說起来.有点心痛.也不是责怪你们,只是..这么久了.4个月.只有一个人給我打过电话.我真的很伤心.我不知道我们的友情在你们的眼理算是什么.但是當我很认证的对待这份友情是.得到的确实这样的结果.我想不到..
可能真的,说句不好聽的話.你们是新加坡人.我是中国人.
在接下来的一年.我希望能努力.慢慢忘记对她的愛.因为我得不到什么,想的很開.5月份不知道应该去新加坡么.这样觉得,好像去,真的是一种浪费.因为友情不值得我这样做.
我这个人一直就比较天真,会认为世界上,什么东西对我都好.可是相反的.什么东西都会伤害我.
生日干嘛說这些.真是的.呵呵,不说了.

2008-01-27T06:34:00.000-08:00

今天时间不是很多.但是这篇文章还是要写.
你们可能都听过周杰伦的新歌:最长的电影.
我自己把这首歌改编了.几乎把里面的词都换了.现在的这些次.我送给我最爱的人.NG PEISHI.
希望你会喜欢.

我们的开始,是漫长的感情.
开始了2年,还是没结果.
你的笑脸庞.脑海中还在旋转.
记得你,慢慢来哭泣.
蒙胧的记忆,我还能记得多久.
我们的对话.圈起了谁记忆.
如果在重来.还能不能完美.
是不是爱你是错误.
在给我2年.让我把记忆都忘记.
别软化了我们的泪.
我都哭了,你却没有记得.
记得你叫我离开你.
记得你叫我离开你.
你说会有机会,其实是借口.

蒙胧的记忆,我还能记得多久.
我们的对话.圈起了谁记忆.
如果在重来.还能不能记得爱.
爱是不是不能快乐.
在给我2年.让我再次爱你..
别软化了我的心.
我都累了,你却没有感觉.
记得你叫我离开你.
记得你叫我远离你.
你说会有机会,其实是假设.

这首歌我想了很久.也许对于你来说,不算什么.可对我来说.代表了我对你的爱.希望你能明白,不用去享受,因为我知道那都是借口.虽然我现在中国了,但是这里的一切并没有让我忘记你.就算回忆飞了,不见了.我还是回记得在飞机场.我对你说过最后的3个字,i love you .

希望朋友看了,不要觉得这些词是我抄袭的.因为如果这样.我觉得我对不起她.所有的词都是我自己想的.

最后,我知道我和她不在同一个地方,不在同一个世界,不在同一个领域.

但是我还是会爱你,不会太久,就这一辈子.

Siyuan .

2008-01-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

真的好久没有上来写写东西了.因为一直没有那个心情.人生现在对于我来说.现在是非常漫长的.

既然上来了,就说说吧.总的来说我对以前做的一切都很后悔.

先说友情吧.和你们接触了这么久.看到了很多人和事都在变.还记得当时我离开新加坡的时候.我,YONGRUI , ZAF , HONGJIAN , TING HE , SHUWEN , CAMILIA , QINGLI.去了一次PASIR RIS.在BUS上面,我真的不知道那是我们最后一次见面.在MRT上面,HONGJIAN 你的转身离开,一直到现在我还记得.说句实话,我对不起你.对不起你们全部人，是我自己的不努力,造成了今天这一切.

我知道我离开后,也许有些人会笑.因为我还是那个我,没有变化,但是也会有人,会伤心,因为我们是好朋友,分开了,就会有伤感.

HONGJIAN,这段话是写给你的.我知道,我走了以后,你认为我抛弃了你.但是我没有,很多东西你要学会想多方面的.我的离开,不是为了这段友情,是为了学业.我如果在待下去,以后我们2个都不会有大的作为.

你妈妈也不希望看到你这样,我在那里的时候我们总是在一起,可是我走了,我希望你能努力,我的生日要来了,我会为你许愿.希望我们的友情,不是2年,是一辈子.

我走了,想要的爱情,当然也就走了,不知道她还过的好不好,还有没有那么任性.现在想想,当时真的很傻.为什么一开始就想拥有你.如果还有1次机会.我真的会好好爱你.希望你知道我讲的是你.PS.

最近一直听JAY的彩虹,最长的电影,蒲公英的约定.想起你.忘了你,很难.

马上要新年了,不知道你们还过的好吗.我知道哭不能解决问题,可是没办法,我真的只能哭.一些东西就是那么的可惜.说再见,再见不会太远.说相见,也不会太远.
我会祝福你们.永远也不分离,因为我爱你们,也爱她.

2007-12-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

我..想买一种药.

它的价格是无价.

它的作用是能让我忘记所有一切东西.不管是好的还是不好的,一切都能忘记.

我的心跑了太久,我一直无法控制它.累了,也不能做什么,知道自己不能回去,是事实,也是一个我一直到现在都无法接受的事实.

很多人都说没关系,人总要分开,可是这次的分开,是我没有预料到的.突然的,来的太突然,让我不知道该怎么做.希望这种药,能让我过的开心,没有了你们，也让我不感到忧伤.

虽然2年的时间不算什么,但是2年来,我们是好朋友,太好了,分开就会哭,这些天,一直在想我们以前说过的话,我们去过的地方,2007/8/8 , 记得吗? BBQ.那天,是我一年以来,最开心的一天.

2007/2/9 , 我的生日,记得吗?我们一起庆祝.我太开心了.

很多时候,如果能有这种药,让我忘记一切.回过我以前做过的错事.如果能让爱,再来1次.机会在给我一次.那是多么多么的好.

可是机会不是永远都有的,shuwen, 你给我的那封信,我一直保存着,至今,当我读起那封信,还是会流泪.在一起的时候,我们没有珍惜,知道失去,才知道可贵.可是,一切已经太晚.

我希望能买到这种药.可是我知道,世界上没有这种药.

药的名字叫后悔药.

2007-12-18T08:08:00.000-08:00

YOYO.long time no see.hahas,these days playing games like siao : ).

so long time nv blog , today think will have something to blog.ie noe all of yoo going to school le , seriously speaking , me very sad lahh. hmms,i want to go to SG also.but so sad that i really cannot go le .

sec 3, long pants...wahh , very xian mu lehhs.! hahas, chat with jessin , camilia , hj and xinlin that day , thanks for making my mood better.LOL..

well , actually dun really have things to say lahh , but i will stilll have something to sayyyyyy, just hope all of you will enjoy your holiday time lahh , cos without you all , its like this holiday , 2 month is lke 2 years.

T.T, so far still no body calls mi , very sad sia.hope you all will call me once you all get your pocket money will call . thanks! just wan to hear you all de voice and so we can chat on phone.

i can pick up the phone on any time. if you still not sure about how to call me , you may msn me . i online everyday de.hahas.. .

kkae , thats all for today , BB

2007-12-09T01:18:00.000-08:00

好久没有来写写东西了.真的好久好久.

今天想用中文来写这篇东西。因为很多东西,好像只能用华文来解释了。

最近我的心情一直不好。虽然买了新电话,但是似乎还是不能提高我的心情.仔细算算.离开新加坡已经大概2个月了。真的真的很想你们。

虽然有时候可以在MSN上面和你们聊天,但是很多夜晚.我还是会挥泪而睡.可能这真的需要时间吧.而且,我知道,我需要很多时间。很多人叫我不要伤心.因为离别是不能避免的。

今天我有了我中国的电话.电话号码是15999117179.希望你们能有空就打电话给我.尽量不要发信息.电话,我是最方便的。本来有一个V CARD和我再一起,但是我好像把他给弄丢了。所以如果你们打电话给我,必须要买一张卡了。叫V CARD.Call 68991978 first.then press 2 to select chinese.1 is for english.then you have to enter the card number.i think is 6 or 7 digit.XXXXXXX-then you enter the PIN number.XXXX , then the most important thing is , after entering the PIN number , enter this numbers.8699115999117179.then wait for mi to pick up your call.86 is china de code.for SG is 65.then 991 is my hometown code.15999117179 is my number. while waiting, will come out all the stupid music la , dun care kk?very very stupid de.thanks.

i will be waiting for you all to call me . thanks.

2007-11-25T04:51:00.000-08:00

sorry for such a long time i didnt post.again sorry.

was very sad these days and also busy.

Hongjian , happy birthday!

we have known each other for more than 2 years le.i am very sorry and ashame that i am not with yoo when you was celebrating your birthday,brother,i am sorry.

actually , just wanna share something with yoo, reb that time when i just sign in msn when its like 20 days back? yoo scolded me that i pang seh yoo by not going back.adrian also did scold mi , said that i am a promise breaker.i promise to everyone that i will go back , but actually , i am not.

if you can notice , when you scold mi , actually i seems like dun care about you all de,but i just wanna tell yoo,i must be strong,cos in your sight,i am like a big brother to yoo,you got anything , i will help yoo,but actually,i am sad.

after knowing you for more than 2 years,we really treat each other like brother.reb one time , i smsed yoo.i treat you as a best friend,and you replied that you dont treat me as a best friend but a brother.i am touched.

i dont know the next 3 years in anderson , will you be happy without me , but i think yes.cos there are qq,pp.yongrui,and meng hwee.i hope you will be much happier after i left.

i cried when i was sleeping.i really miss you.miss the times we spent together,go out , take mrt.tio taiji,dee sio the indian ppl.hahas,but its memory le.i hope we wont cry anymore because we are strong enough to go through anything.reb that?

today my post will just about yoo.so be happy after reading okay!thanks bro. take care and all the best , don't do stupid stuff.

your brother-Zhang Siyuan

2007-11-16T07:20:00.000-08:00

haha.its quite fun to blog everyday siol.wahaa
kkae.i noe that a lot ppl going to chendu next wednesday.haha,again , reminder.please wear more lahs,wear more ..cos its really very cold.

these daysi keep playing game.dhen dun noe how to talk liao.lol.got link mehhs?
zzzz.get some news from yongrui bro about wad happened on camilia birthday.wabiang.ting he, so big size liao , still throw things on other gals? who cannot jio , tell mi lahh, i introduce to ue some gal , no need throw slipper at other girls de.

haha,jkjk.today went out to eat dinner wib my uncle.well.we will talking about going to another place to spend holiday during new year,its fun lahh.wahaha.hmms,i need to drive car again.with my dad.ZZzzz.i must drive,cos its really fun.

discussed something about japanese ppl when they kill china ppl.fuck them actually.fuck all of the japanese ppl.Lolls.dun like them still fuck them.: X.so many f word comes out
.psps.promise not to scold le.

kkae lahh,thats all for today.bb

2007-11-15T06:40:00.000-08:00

comp is like so fucking lag.LOls,f word.sorry sorry : X

hmms,today i cooked dinner for my family,wahh,sibei tiring siol.but nvm lahh,cook for my family i still feel very happy.
hongjian did msn mi that he bought long pants.well,actually i am a bit jealous lahh,because after studying in singapore so long,didnt get a chance to wear long pants.but nvm also lah,dun wear jiu dun wear loh.

i hope 2/7 boys, since ue all wear long pants le,should be more mature kkae?dun make fun in class.dun dee siao teachers,dun do stupid staffs.i noe ie go le , there is nobody could take care ue all.but nvm de,if ue all got anything just msn mi when i online or leave a instant offline message,i will ask my brothers help ue all.no worry de.

now i need all of ue think something for mi.^^ . siyuan is changing a new HP.woo~~
hha,3 phones now is under my consideration.NOkia N81.5610 and 5310.tell mi which one is better kkae?HAHA.i like n81 and 5610 more.but still dun noe which will be better.XD.

kkae, thats all for todya.Buaii

2007-11-14T05:47:00.000-08:00

okay lahh.today very happy acutally,cos got so many friends chatting wib mi.^^ . i am so happy.but i am sad at the same time,cos going to JC so soon le , my parents is gibing tuition at this time.wahh,sibei stress.but nvm,think of going UNI so soon.i am happy also.LOl.

hmms.i wan to say something to all my friends.actually i noe i leave singapore is quite a sad thing lah.but there is no point crying.think this way maybe will let ue all feel better.hmms.now we are sec 2,after 3 years,i will still leave.after 3 years,our gan xing will be more stable.if by that time i leave again,we will be more sad.trust mi.

another point,i promise all of yoo , every time holiday,not end of year or mid year,i will go visit you all.can anyone of ue please tell mi the price of the chalet.+ BBQ.cos i confirm by the time i go there i will open chalet and call all of you come out,so dun worry.we will hab a lot of fun,we can chat until dun sleep.

another thing.i will be making a line very soon i think , because my school starts on FEB.and my birthday seems coming so soon le.16years old.wooo~~ hhaa.all try to talk to mi on msn bah,i dun noe why that i only can blog but i cant see my own blog on my internet.tmd.china internet sucks lahhl~

kkae thats all from mi today,will blog tml also.wahhaa,everyday hor!

<3 Izyan Sis.HongJian Bro.Yong Rui Bro.Shermaine Crybaby.Valerie DUMB DUMB.

2007-11-13T06:40:00.000-08:00

okay lahhs.its like so long i nv come here and blog le?actually is just 2 days.haha.Happy Birthday Camilia.know ue for 2 years le.very long le hor.but very sorry i cant go ur birthday BBQ.if not i promise i will make a lot jokes de.haha,anyways,wish ue happy!

these days learning inline skating also.wah,fall down dun noe how many times le, make mi very very pain.cannot stand it.but i hab to carry on.i must try to learn something new again by my self again after i learn how to ride a bike.LOL!

i cant find a phone that i like in my hometown.anybody can help mi see a new phone wheather is out in singapore.the brand is Nokia 5610,its a music phone.slide de,if come out liao , please tell mi , but i just cannot find it.ROAR!!!

today i changed my pm.<3 Izyan Sis.HongJian Bro.Shermaine Crybaby.Valerie DUMB DUMB.wahha.all of them is my best friends.wahaha,must happpy everyday okay.

okays lahh.thats all lahh.no much thing happened.~

2007-11-11T05:57:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

this is the second post of the day, i dun like the feeling actually, but i still have to blog lahh,cos its a promise. LOL.

hmms,today went out wib my parents,actually my dad teach mi how to drive car.LOL,its really shiok lahh,driving is so fun,

but now i am still a noob , but my dad still says that i am good in driving . wahha,hope next time could buy a car my self and drive it my self.^^

oh ya , anyway, i hab a plan for 2/7 boyss and gals,i am quite confirm that i will be going singapore During MAY ,and i think its the time that ue all habing ur june holiday,

i wan to make a chalet.play all day and night with you all . hahaha,maybe other class friends also can join,of cos i think the fees i will pay all , so no worry.wahaha,

okay lahh,thats all for today , i will blog everyday de.so please do check my blog and chat with mi on MSN.thank you all :D

enjoy.i <3 Izyan SIs,Show Bro,Hj Bro.Valerie DUMB DUMB.

2007-11-10T18:50:00.000-08:00

sorry that i didnt blog yesterday.cos went to cousin house.i told my mother that i need to go back and blog but she played majiang til 1 am. -.- , so i came back from cousin house.jiu sleep le , sorry sorry.

hmms,actually there no much thing to blog about,,just miss ue all alot lo.haha

oh ya , i reb something le , attention to all those who going chengdu,please bring more clother , cos chengdu is so damn cold okay! please bring more cloth.

very boring actually , okay lah , still dun noe today will happen wad, i will blog at night time.

2007-11-09T04:20:00.000-08:00

Hellos all again.dun noe wad happen to my blog.i just cant view it.wa biang,i only can post something here.sad lahh!!

finally,my mother promise will gib mi sometime to make a post everyday.haha,happy lahh!hmms,valerie.thank yoo thank yoo.tell ue my number when i got the line okayys?thank yoo.

and thank izyan sis,ue very mature lahhs,not like mi , super childish.wth,dun noe suhui will view my blog or not.later she laugh at mi again.i am only childish towards izyan,not ue hor suhui!

bought something from HK,wah,first time my father will buy things for mi siol.lolls.PSP,Nokia phone.wth,so happy.

thank you yOng rui,aka SHOW.hmms,蒲公英的约定.nice song , thanks show for sending mi almost all the jay song.wahhaa,jay rawks.

hmms,qing li uhs,if ue view my blog dhen add mi msn also lahhs,omfg_siyuan@hotmail.com.

chua ting he, eh , i got ask some of my friends buy the V-card from ue lehh,biang,see not ,helping ue lehh,earn more money,dhen lend to more ppl.see,i brother.wahaha.

camilia-see,i promise ue to blog everyday rite.wahah,i very nice de.anw.Happy Birthday!wish ue because more blacky : X banana!

kkae,thats all for today lahs,enjoys.

2007-11-07T22:28:00.000-08:00

okays,think everybody noes that iie not going back to sg anymore rite.hmms,okay lahh,let mi tell all of ue wads my plan in china.

actually,i dun study in my hometown,i study at beijing.first year,i will take JC year 1,follow by year 2,maybe there is year 3 ? -.-.i dun noe.after all.i just need to study the most 3 more years dhen i can go austrlia for UNiversity.

LOL,its like so fast rite?i also cant believe it,anyway,its really a better way,cos even if i study in anderson,i hab the stupid contract wib the school,any offence i may get expelled.

so it is much better to study here,but the most sad thing is,i hab to leave all my friends and 'her'

at first,i did promise to some of ue i will go back singapore,but sorry,i made a empty promise.i am very sorry,sorry to my brother-hongjian.friends and many more.

The time table for mi in that school is really very TOOT.

wake up at 7am,lesson til 4:30/dhen rest,dhen 7pm-9pm is another lesson.

wahhs,so damn tired lahh,where got time to online msn.sry,i maybe not online msn so often cos of the stupid time table.

there is a way , all of ue can talk to mi,that is though PHONE!.

mai siao hor,use IDD call mi, there is a way , let mi teach ue all,hmms,ue all can buy one phone card called " V card".Chua Ting He from 2/7 is currently selling,hmms,buy from him,10 dollars,ue can call mi and talk to mi up to 6 hours.

How to use the phone card;;

Step 1:use ur house phone or hp , call 68991978.

Step 2:select english or chinese,dhen enter the card code dhen press # , dhen enter PIN number , press # dhen enter my phone number in china can le.err,i still dun hab a line , i will make it asap,so ue all can call mi any time.

everyday 1 post.start from today.

2007-10-27T09:06:00.000-07:00

写这些话,希望你们能记在心里.

这么久了,2年,可能我以前的不明白什么是友谊,但是因为我这次要离开了,可能真的不回来了,今天和朋友出去了最后1次.大家都没有谈到我要回去的问题.知道最后1刻,我说如果我不回来会怎么样?

大家都沉默了,脸上失去了表情,好像只有时间在走,大家都被我的一句话冻结了.试问这个世界,什么是真正的友情?如果需要一辈子去证实,我觉的,不用了,2年,大家之间发生了很多事情,快乐,欢笑,痛苦,流泪.可能放弃是最好的选择,但是我不知道为什么,我放弃不了大家的感情和那如似钢铁一般的友谊.

我真的很后悔,为了着一切,我想惩罚我自己,如果这样我就能留下,我心甘情愿.

谢谢你们对我的支持,照顾,谅解.我记在心里了,你们为我写的信,礼物,我真的很感激,我想我不需要什么东西来证明什么,我谢谢你们所有的东西.

我张思远谢谢你们.

还有对我爱的人,Peishi.不需要说对不起.和你自己最爱的人就可以了.你的幸福,可以让我放心.,有什么事,可以通过MSN 和我说.我星期2早上6点20分,飞去广州.

2007-10-14T07:55:00.000-07:00

如果你真的爱一个人的话。那么，她的所有缺点在你的眼里都将是优点这句话么？如果你爱她，你会尽你最大的努力给她快乐。即使有很多时候她根本都不知道你为她做了多大的努力，你一个人为了她做了多大牺牲忍受了多少痛苦。但是，这就是爱一个人的力量。　　喜欢上一个人，就是你会觉得只要能够看见她，不管她是否注意到你。你就会觉得很安心。相反的，如果客观条件真的不许可你们相见，你也决不能相信“相见不如怀念”这句话。这只是无能的人自己安慰自己的一种方式。到那时，你所必须要做的也是你非常想做的就是听到她的声音，那样你也会觉得很幸福。也许你在拨通电话时忽然不知道该说些什么，这时的感觉应该就是――只是想听听那熟悉的声音，真正想拨通电话的只是你自己心底的一根弦。　　爱一个人可以到你喜欢她所喜欢的一切，不管你以前是不是觉得这个东西有多么的不好。还有，即使在非常非常不经意的情况下你遇见了她，你也会心跳加快至少三十至五十下，不管你的心理素质有多么的强。　　爱一个人可以到你心甘情愿为她付出你的一切，而你却从来没想过值不值得。因为在你的心里完全只是一个想法――爱她就等于爱自己。　　爱一个人你的智商会下降到最低水平，甚至到你不能分辨她是否在乎你。你却还在无怨的为她的倾注你的所有。　　爱一个人你将不会在乎她的所有客观条件（包括她是否有她所爱的人），你想做的就是用你的一颗真心去做你该做的，让她知道在茫茫人海中有你在关心她，爱护她。　　爱一个人你将分辨不出白天与黑夜，她的存在与消失，因为她将无时无刻不在你的心里。　　爱一个人你将会一反常态的注重你自己的一举一动，尤其是在她的面前。因为你很怕你的失态会在她心里造成不可弥补的缺憾。　　爱一个人你会变得异常敏感，你开始想你和她之间的任何琐碎片断，同时不自主的表现在你的举手投足之间。　　爱一个人永远不是你的错误，但大多数时候你将要承受很多的痛苦。因为，在寻求真爱的道路上，遍是荆棘。当你发现有一天你得到了你的真爱，你就能够真正体会到幸福的含义。你将会像她爱你一样用你一生的时间去照顾她，爱护她。虽然对于一份真爱来说一生的时间不是很长，但是，你已经做到了你想做的――爱她就等于爱自己。所以，珍惜一份真爱要比取得一份真爱难得多。记住，你并没有很多机会也没有很长的时间。

++ sry for such a long time i hab not been blogging.grats this is my 100th post.=)

the war will nv end

2007-10-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

如果我离去,不要想到我,因为当你想到我的时候,我在流泪.

在新加坡待了将近5年了,5年多,风风雨雨,从一个不会讲英文的我,变成了现在的我.走了很久,陪人欺负过,也做过很多伤害别人的事.第一次来新加坡,望着这个热死人的地方,我什么也不明白,只知道到了这里是来学习,读书的.

到了这里,没有朋友,只有我和妈妈,记得第一次,我还叫妈妈赶快回去中国,我自己可以独立,但是很多次,妈妈让我一个人搭BUS,但却在我后面紧紧的跟着我这个无知的小孩.想起妈妈那时候还年轻,今年9月28号,妈妈42岁了,说真的,打电话去中国给妈妈的同时,我的心,真的很痛,我知道直到我出生到现在,我从来没有让我的成绩令妈妈开心过.

从在中国的时候,我就是麻烦出生,天天惹麻烦,妈妈也常常流泪,知道每次要离别的时候,大家,爸爸我,妈妈都会哭,爸爸是个坚强的人,虽然从小到大,爸爸的脾气一直很坏,我只要做错事,就打到我吐血,但是我现在长大了,那些恨,也没有了,因为我知道他真的很爱我,有时候,我就是不知道怎么该跟我的爸爸沟通,可能这真的是我一生中最大的错误,那就是没有和我这位伟大的爸爸沟通好,爸爸45岁了,在中国,我的家乡,一个很了不起的人,花了100万人民币把我送来新加坡,上辈子赚的钱,全部用在了我身上,但是真的很抱歉,学校可能给不了我这个机会,要把我开除了.

100万,一个从20多岁就开车跑遍中国的男人,30多岁,白手起家,开创自己的公司,赚的100玩,就让我,玩了5年,完了,飞了.

虽然我知道自己失去了很多,也得到了很多,得到是失败后的苦,失去了快乐的甜,我应该怎么做,才不让父母失望呢.

2007-09-28T06:12:00.000-07:00

Exam started today.

all of ue must get good result okays?post some points that boys need to gib in during relationship.

1、如果你喜欢她，就告诉她吧，即使她拒绝，并不丢面子，因为在她的心里，会因为你的真情而感激你。 2、如果她喜欢你，要明确告诉她你的感情，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢。千万不要怕伤害她而犹豫不决地。 3、女孩子有时的任性只是想向你撒撒娇，不用争辩，她没有怪你什么，傻笑一下，哄哄她，她会很感动地更加爱你。 4、女孩子向你发脾气，那是因为她爱你，把你当成最亲的，最贴心的，最有安全感的人，千万不要和她发脾气。静静地等着，等她消气后后悔地去抱你。 5、她为你准备的东西，满不在乎地递给你，你千万不要也满不在乎，因为她其实准备得很用心很细。 6、不用总承诺要给她多好的生活，因为她爱你就会相信你，承诺一次，她就永远不会忘记，她看得见你的努力。 7、她对你冷漠漠的，不要认为莫名其妙，是不是最近疏忽了，有多少个小时没有和她联系？ 8、永远不要嫌烦不说“我爱你”。即使你一个小时打电话说一次，她也会甜甜地“责怪”你。 9、她为你掉眼泪了，不要道歉，不要安慰，紧紧地抱住她，告诉她你在，就可以。千万不要自责地离去，因为她这时最需要你。 10、要信任她，她爱你，就什么都不会骗你 .

有道理..

2007-09-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

走了这么久,自己可能还是达不到学校的要求,但是自己真的试了很多次 ,SEC 2 的TERM3 和TERM4,我真的很想在自己的胸口插1刀,狠狠的1刀.为什么自己还不不能做个好学生呢?

MISS TAN 发了信息给GUARDIAN,也许真的,可能留不下来了.其实最近几点可能已经预感到了,不停的看着新加坡的天空 ,流泪了,我也后悔了。

说句真话,很多人,并不了解我,我也有很多心事,打了个电话给老爸,说了很多事情,老爸说我长大了,也许是真的吧,但是过去可能是改变不了的,真的,学校也真的给我很多机会,我很谢谢MISS TAN,真的谢谢你,虽然真的恨过你,但是你是位很出色的老师,谢谢你这么久一直对我的仁慈,但是我们年轻人,火气是旺了些,我们也吵了很多次,但是到了SEC 2 ,我真的尊重你了,就算这次我死了,我也会谢谢你,因为命运就让我被开除.

我天生就不是一个好人,对了很多人和物,都有了很多的伤害,对不起了,

其实我来新加坡5年了,身边有了不少朋友,我很谢谢你们,在我需要你们的时候,你们真的给了我支持,就算我真的回到了中国,我也是不会忘记你们的.

如果真的留不下来,我们只能是有缘无分

2007-09-21T06:47:00.001-07:00

finally finally finally qt some time to blog today.HIE all.

its like so long i nv blog lerhhs.wa...finally i can do something that is meaningfull.bleahs.
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okay lar..today dun wan to blog anything about relationship.it is all shit.=.=

haha.first of all.thanks Aihui fer making mi happy these days?LOL/.

Hmm.end of year exam is comin.seriously speaking,iie am really really fucking stress.iie am really revising like siaO.please do believe it.cos i am really studying..

iie am really damn worry that i cannot make to sec 3 . cos actually iie cant go to sec 2 de.prinicipal gib mi a chance thats why i come to sec 2.

if i cannot make it to sec 3 , iiewill qo back to china.cant see all of ue.iie am really scare.when i think about this.sometimes iie will cry also.

so from today,if ue hab any subjecct NOTES.please DO PHOTOCOPY dhen pass to mi.
($$ will be paid..-.-)

thanks Jessin.Samantha fer gibing mi notes.well, jessin,ue SIAO.i saw ue today at somewhere not far from school..ue tmd jumping?SIAO???

This week is like siao siao fer mi.my mood is really like fuck.didnt mean to ignore ppl,but is just that i really do fuck up about all the things.SRy,didnt mean to Scold also.iie must scold lesser,cos she dun like it.HAHA.iie still do reb.

okay lar.dun wan blog about her.later cry again.AM I A BABY?

thats all fer today.maybe really long long time dhen blog once.cos there is really nothing to blog some days.

Buaii.

2007-09-16T06:08:00.000-07:00

SOrrie didnt blog fer 2 days lerhhs.was busy playing maple.so sorrie to those who view my blog almost everyday..

today sadly.no story to share.but i wanna write somethinq about relationship de.

when ue are in love some one that dont love ue.and yet there is a another boy/gal who love ue.please do think about how they feel.this is very important.cos what ue do to them bad/good.its so fucking important to them.

but if ue really dun like the boy/gal .please do tell them.if ue dont tell them that ue dun like them.when the time he or she ask ue fer stead and yet kena reject , it will be more sad and hurting.

2 more weeks jiu abour finall exam lerh.because of exam.stop Maple fer 2 weekks.

all those who play maple or doing other stupid thing please stop fer awhile.cos this exam is very important.iie scare i cant qo to sec 3 actually.

kkae lahhs.thats all fer today.thanks fer viewing mi.=) . BUaiis.tml dhen blog if i wan to.LOL.

2007-09-13T06:09:00.000-07:00

Didt bloq fer yesterday.SOrrie.Here is a story just like ms.Somethinq requested.

能成为牵绊，所以要选择放手，
从容的让彼此走出彼此的世界。
凡事到极至，伤也会痛。
其实爱过就会懂，
彼此个性的太过坚强终究会是一起生活的阴影。

昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹。
两人能携手走完整人生固然美好，
可是有他陪同走过一段也应心存感激了。

爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊，
只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好。

相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘，
缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！！
不能成为牵绊，所以要选择放手，
从容的让彼此走出彼此的世界。
凡事到极至，伤也会痛。
其实爱过就会懂，
彼此个性的太过坚强终究会是一起生活的阴影。

昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹。
两人能携手走完整人生固然美好，
可是有他陪同走过一段也应心存感激了。

爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊，
只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好。

相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘，
缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱

有时候不是因为不能拥有，是拥有就会太累-Siyuan

2007-09-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

wanted to post a story today.but too bad these is no good story for mi to post today.so . SORRY.

today is like slacking all day long.before recess had ENGLISH and science.well.iie am so tired that i slept fer science period.

after recess, there should hab 2 hours derh H&E,but the teacher didnt come,so i stay in class room to chat wib friends ,after H&E , had chinese.miss tan didnt come also.relieve teacher took over our class.its such a good day.

iie hab nothing t0 blog lerhhs.iie still feel like closing this stupid blog.ANYWAY.i have a nice song to recommend to all of ue.金海心-阳光下的星星，its nice.

2007-09-10T04:42:00.000-07:00

read this.maybe it could tell ue why iie dun wan to be friends to those who had relationship wib mi..

分手后

我还认识你

不过

不想再见你
你过得好
我不会祝福你
过得坏
我亦不会嘲笑你
因为
我们已不再是朋友了
茫茫人海
我不能再珍惜你
抱歉
我失去的
也是你失去的
如果你要我陪你喝杯茶!
好的
可是
仅此而已
如果你要我陪你聊天!
好的
可是
仅此而已
分手后不必做朋友否则何言分手?
分手后
不可以做朋友
因为
曾经伤害过
不可以做敌人
因为
曾经深爱过
所以
我们成了
最熟悉的陌生人

我们永远都做不了普通的朋友。对吗？

2007-09-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

Decided.Blog Nt Shutting dOWN.=)

iie sry fer nt blogging so much during holiday.cos iie am so damn busy trainig maple.iie am sry.today hab nothing blog also.

thanks to all those who view blog.

iie promise will start blogging everyday again from tomorrow onwards.

2007-09-08T06:52:00.000-07:00

90th post.
爱情是无罪的，但是，如果爱情发生在不恰当的时候，往往会给爱着的人带来无限的痛苦。

被爱好过爱人

曾经的幻想，曾经的约定，曾经的爱恋，曾经已经成为回忆。

很多时候，可能想到她，还会伤心，没一次坐过他，那5CM的距离，可能是我们最近的吧。但是就就是这样却让我更伤心。

these didnt update so often.was chionging maple liao siao.iie am sry.iie also notice the ppl coming to my bloq is getting lesser and lesser.i should chose this blog dhen.

also hab nothing to blog about.

ppl who agree to close this blog.please tell mi Via MSN or Tags.

2007-09-05T07:59:00.001-07:00

and need to post some pic.iie like the third one.绝望多少次，我才能真正忘了你？

2007-09-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

Nothing last forever in this world.

didnt bloq fer yesterday,ben lai dun wan bloq today also derhs.bbut feel sian so bloq lor.actually iie just wanna sae,when ue hab some one that very very close to ue,it maybe not forever.

as in now , iie dun hab anymore mei.only 3 jies.wakkaka.feel so boring lors.who wan be my gan mei mei??Lmao.

morninq went to school,wanted to take books.but kns,security dun wan mi in cos i wear slipper.wtf?the weather issh so hot , i from bishan come to AMK , and just becos i wear slipper he dun wan mi in?LAMe

wahhs.dun noe wan to write what?Shall i bloq everyday or 3 day once?dhen i will hab more thinqs to bloq.?

kkaes , today stoop here lahhs.really hab nth to write anymore.=X.Buais.

F>God sister.

2007-09-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

actually hab nothing to write abt derhhs.buut iie just thinkinq iie am gettinq emo aqain liiao.hais..

think abt her..iie noe both of us dun wanna see each other,but everytime we walk pass each other.iie dun noe how ue feel.from my side.iie really feel heart break everytime ue walk pass mi.

iie think this is fate.

maybe iie am really irratinq cos iie always bloq about ue.and ue may feel dulan ,but iie just wan to blog whatever iie wanna sae,and how i feel deep in my heart.

sometimes iie will qo her blog.the songs that she upload to her blog everydday , even iie dun hab the song iie will dl it.

and iie think from now on,iie should change iie am i behaving.please leave a taq about what ue all wan i be.iie will change to that.try my best.

aiiya,anw i dun wan to talk abt her lerhhs.everytime i think abt her,its useless.she will just treat mi as a dog?maybe bahhs.

kkae , thats all fer today.JESSIN NOOB.NOOB NOOB NOOB NOOB NOOB.

<3 AOS.

2007-09-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

hab nothing to write actually.iie am just thinking abt her..here is song derh 歌词.thats is all i wanna write.

并不是真的路过而已也不是真的我会想你全部不是真的是骗自己其实还爱你爱着你

我以为我早想清楚不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路再看一眼有过的幸福

爱情好象流沙我不挣扎随它去吧我不害怕爱情好象流沙心里的牵挂不原放下 OH BABY 让我这样吧

爱情好象流沙我不说话等待黑暗让眼泪落下爱情好象流沙明知该躲它无法自拔 OH BABY 是我太傻

是一再的做一再的错不由我我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙

thats all fer today.

2007-09-01T05:47:00.000-07:00

Hi he four of us.friends forever bahhs.from left.Yongrui,Qin Quan.ME.Yuanshenq
iie write one.
ting he took fer mi when iie was emo.
qin quan and yongrui.,they enjoy themselves.
yong.handsome arhhs.SHOW ON STAGE.!

went to east coast today..=)4 of us.hab nth to bloq abt so just post some pic bahhs.

2007-08-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

hope all of ue will like it.BERI nice fer mi.

2007-08-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

today wan to post the second part of 喜欢与爱的差别。

喜欢是在深夜看书时突然想起她，想象她现在做什么，心里漾起一阵轻飘飘的温暖，却从不主动给她打电话。几分钟后，注意力又重新被书中的情节吸引!

　　是在寂寞的夜里，思念如潮水般涌来，手里捧着书却怎么也看不进去，心里惦记着她此时是否还在加班，吃没吃晚饭，是不是如自己想着她一般想着自己。

　　喜欢是和她讨论问题争的面红耳赤，各不相让，在她面前像个刺猬一样从不认输，但在心里却早已暗暗佩服她的见地她的才华。

　　爱是希望她和自己步调一致，和自己心灵相通，她无心说的一句玩笑话也能让自己顷刻情绪低落甚至眼泪汪汪。在她面前，自己是从不设防的。

　　喜欢是出门在外给她发个短信，告诉她这边的天气很好，然后把手机关掉，独自在异地疯玩一个星期，晒成一个黑人后突然出现在她面前吓他一跳。

　　爱是无论到哪都希望有她陪伴。可以站在海边给她打手机，让她听听海浪的声音；也可以因为在异乡的街道上看到一个酷似她的背影而愣在原地久久不动。

　　喜欢是她出差前简单的道一声“一路平安”，看着她离去的背影，心中有一点不舍，却什么也不说，只是默默等待她归来的消息.

　　爱是她临出差前千叮咛万嘱咐，往她的背包里塞满衣服和食物，在车站要等到火车开走才肯离开。并且在她走后的日子里天天心神不定，一遍遍的祈祷她能够平安归来。

　　喜欢是在受伤的时候，不想让她看到自己脆弱的一面，在她面前把眼泪悄悄抹掉，转过头依然是一副快乐坚强的模样。

　　爱是在受委屈的时候，爬在她的胸前痛哭，没有伪装没有顾虑，把所有的烦恼统统告诉她，并渴望从她的怀抱中得到安慰。

　　喜欢是和她周末逛街逛累了一起吃肯德基；是在寒冷的冬天和她抢一杯热咖啡；是和她并肩走在街上中间始终隔着半米的距离；是陪她一起在电脑前打游戏两个人笑的像个孩子。
　爱是周末利用半天时间亲手做出几道好菜满足的看她吃下去；是在寒冷的冬天不断为她的咖啡杯里续上热水；是和她走在街上任由他紧紧挽着自己的手；是在她旁边安静着做着，幸福地看着她在电脑前工作时专心的样子。

可能就是这样,爱的力量太大了,也许有的时候,真的可以为一个你爱的人做一切事-siyuan

2007-08-28T06:39:00.000-07:00

Firstly.XInnanJIEJIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

wa..didi wish ue everyday also happy lor hor.dun sae mi nt good.next time i go seragoon see ue treat ue eat things okay??dun angry hor i nv go see ue.

记得那时候我刚从中国来，没有什么朋友，只有你一个人在旁边和我聊天，帮助我。那时的我，还很天真，还是一个离不开父母的孩子，但是现在我变了很多，朋友也很多，我也离开了以前GUARDIAN的家，真的很抱歉，知道你和房子里面的那些人不能沟通，还把你一个人丢在那里。对不起姐。

TERM2的时候回去一次看你，一直很忙，我每天在外面跑来跑去，哪个也玩，这个也玩，今天是你的生日，我他妈的却给忘了。对不起啦老姐，听你在MSN上面说你今天很高兴，我真的很开心，毕竟我把你当成自己的真姐姐，说句实话，我爱你。真的，姐姐弟弟就一辈子吧。

虽然我的家庭背景不一样，但是在我们班很多人和你一样。我只要你知道，不管怎么样，我永远支持你，在什么方面都一样。能不能答应我一辈子开心？不要轻易掉眼泪。

我在的时候，你有事情就给我说，但是你也会哭，我最不喜欢的就是女孩子哭，尤其是你，自己身体不好还一直哭来哭去。你知不知道，如果你自己身体不好，父母伤心，我也会伤心得。

我们只吵过一次架，那是一件白痴的事情，不提了。

总之，你老弟我的礼物一定会给你的，到时候才去找你吧，我知道你喜欢什么，=）

生日快乐hOR。最好给我快乐一辈子！~。要不你就~~嘿嘿~~

x3 jiejie.~~

2007-08-26T06:42:00.000-07:00

today wan to post something about whats the difference between like and love.

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心。
爱一个人，在一起的时候，会莫名的失落。

喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来。
爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐。
爱一个人，你会常常流泪。

喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起她。
爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着她。

喜欢一个人，当你想起她，你会微微一笑。
爱一个人，当你想起她，你会对着天空发呆。

喜欢一个人，你会想她有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢。
爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇，将来我们的孩子会是什么样子？

喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心。
爱一个人希望她会更开心。

喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天。
爱一个人，你期望的是永远。

喜欢一个人，是看到了她的优点。
爱一个人，是包容了她的缺点。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心。
爱一个人，在一起的时候，会莫名的失落。

喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来。
爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐。
爱一个人，你会常常流泪。

喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起她。
爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着她。

喜欢一个人，当你想起她，你会微微一笑。
爱一个人，当你想起她，你会对着天空发呆。

喜欢一个人，你会想她有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢。
爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇，将来我们的孩子会是什么样子？

喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心。
爱一个人希望她会更开心。

喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天。
爱一个人，你期望的是永远。

喜欢一个人，是看到了她的优点。
爱一个人，是包容了她的缺点。

actually there are second part fer this.but its too long to post.so i think i just post these is enough.hope ue will like it.because all of them are true.你喜欢她/还是你爱她？

2007-08-25T01:52:00.000-07:00

80th post.today dun wish to blog after play maple.cos ii am so tired after doing so many things.since now gt the energy to blog.i will blog now.

these days playing maple like siao . so didnt actually care too much fer other things.friends.etc.

first.sorry to aldric and ting he.

ting he>these days happened a lot of things.(hj derh).all of us derh mood is nt good.well.i tot everyone is like mi.will be happy everyday.but yet .we did quarrel a few times in this week.ue and mi actually gt the fate to be brother.i thank ue fer lending mi so much money.really thanks . and alos duibuqi fer quarreling wib ue.

aldric>brother,both of us now chiong maple.didnt go out at all,but i just wan to tell ue,i will still treat ue as a good friend.cos when i need ue,ue are there fer mi.thanks.

Samantha,cynthia>we in 2/7 , means we are a big family.dun cos any stupid taiji,quarrel wib each other.失去才知道，拥有过的快乐。dun ever forget that.

just like hj.when the one care him is gone.he maybe regret.but why him/her is there,珍惜？

cynthia>i count so many times.nw really gt ue this mei lerhhs.cos leave mi 1 by 1 .its fate maybe.hope ue will stay wib mi forever.

this is all that i wanna write..thanks fer viewing my blog.

<3 brothers,friends.mei.jie.

哭过才知道，笑过的快乐。----Siyuan

2007-08-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

today the mood issh the same..still hab nothing to write about..

hais..here is another story..

男人在面对男女感情时，最易犯的错误就是用男人的思路去想女人的思路。事实上，男女不光外在的构造不用，内心，头脑的构造也不同。男人如果只用男人的思路就无法理解女人的很多行为。女人是感性的，特别是爱上了男人的女人，她的感性在不断扩大，理性在不断缩小。所以她可以从心底相信你会永远爱她之类的话。所以她会从心底相信，你犯过的错误不会再犯。所以她会从心底相信，你的甜言蜜语是真切的发自内心的。

爱上男人的女人被男人引入了爱情甜梦中，她们全然忘我的享受爱情的甜蜜和快乐，从而失去了分别现实和梦境的能力。她说，我在梦里遇到你，我的梦里全是你。她闭上眼，在梦中行走，她依靠爱和信任跟着你在黑暗中行走，这时，你就是她的光明和希望。爱上你的女人是最脆弱的，她可以因为你不经意的甜言而开心一整天，也可能会因为你无心的伤害而落泪，因为她把自己给了你，因为她只活在甜美的梦中。

请珍惜爱上你的女人，因为爱你，她失去了天使的翅膀，所以她无法再飞回天堂，因为爱你，她选择了和你在人间游荡。因为爱你，她给了你她全部的信任和完全的依赖，任由你来引领她的命运和未来。因为爱你，她把自己的快乐和痛苦都交给了你，所以你才可以那么轻易就让她快乐。

请珍惜爱上你的女人，这个梦，也许她一生只做一次，这份信任，也许她只会给你 ..

你能明白女孩子怎么想吗？nv try to think .

2007-08-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

i feel like so long nv blog lerhhs.but these days also nth happen.

its so sian fer mi.playing maple like a job fer mi.

finally 87.=_=/chiong chiong chiong.

i dun noe need to write what also.maybe post a story bahs..

一次默默的放弃，放弃一个心仪却无缘份的朋友；　　
放弃某种投入却无收获的感情；　　
放弃某种心灵的期望；放弃某种思想。　　
这时就会生出一种伤感，然而这种伤感并不妨碍自己去重新开始，　　
在新的时空内将音乐重听一遍，将故事在说一遍！　　
因为这是一种自然的告别与放弃，它富有超脱精神，因而伤感得美丽！　　
曾经有种感觉，想让它成为永远。　　
过了许多年，才发现它已渐渐消逝了。　　
然后才懂：　　
原来握在手里的，不一定就是我们真正拥有的；　　
我们所拥有的，也不一定就是我们真正铭刻在心的！　　
其实人生很多时候需要自觉的放弃！　　
世间有太多的美好的事物。　　
对没有拥有的美好，我们一直在苦苦的向往与追求。　　
为了获得，而忙忙碌碌。　　
其实自己真正的所需要的，　　
往往要在经历许多年后才会明白，甚至穷尽一生也不知所终！　　
而对已经拥有的美好，我们又因为常常得而复失的经历，而存在一份忐忑与担心。　　
夕阳易逝的叹息、花开花落的烦恼、人生本是不快乐的！
因为拥有的时候，我们也许正在失去，
而放弃的时候，我们也许又在重新获得。
对万事万物，我们其实都不可能有绝对的把握。
如果刻意去追逐与拥有，就很难走出患得患失的误区。
所以生命需要升华出安静超头的精神。
明白的人懂的放弃，真情的人懂的牺牲，幸福的人懂得超脱！
“我不是因你而来到这个世界，却是因为你而更加眷恋这个世界！
如果能和你在一起，我会对这个世界满怀感激，
如果不能和你在一起，我会默默的走开，
却仍然不会失掉对这个世界的爱和感激。
感激上天让我与你相遇与你别离，完成上帝所创造的一首诗！”
生命给了我们无尽的悲哀，也给来我们永远的答案。
于是，安然一份放弃，固守一份超脱！
不管红尘世俗的生活如何变迁，
不管个人的选择方式如何，
更不管握在手中的东西轻重如何，
我们虽逃避也勇敢，虽伤感也欣慰！
我们像往常一样向生活的深处走去，我们像往常一样在逐步放弃，又逐步坚定！
有一种感觉总在失眠时，才承认是“相思”；
有一种缘分总在梦醒后，才相信是“永恒”；
有一种目光总在分手时，才看见是“眷恋”；
有一种心情总在离别后，才明白是“失落”。

thats it.命运是无可奈何的。

2007-08-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

what issh love?什么是爱，我讲的，你同意吗？

爱情是一个旋涡，越挣扎越沉沦...
爱情是一段残壁，留下的班驳会成为心底永远的痕迹...
爱情是喧哗的夜晚，寂不寂寞，只有自己才知道...
爱情是高耸的门槛，过还是不过，都得面对它...
爱情是积雪的窗棂，不推开就不会知道外面的世界美不美丽...
爱情是停车坪，安全靠你自己主宰...
爱情是睁大眼睛，看见的结果其实取决于内心...
爱情是攀爬的藤蔓，生命力因你存在而无限...
爱情是秋天，不止收获，也忧郁的绚烂着...
爱情是高楼尖的天空，越蔚蓝越需要云朵的装点...
爱情是一把钥匙，开启我们的心门，有时候却忘记再关上...
爱情是寂静的夜晚，思念谁心灵最透彻...
爱情是水中森林，相伴寂寞而生...
爱情是栅栏，有的人为了爱情自愿在里面，有的人则不喜欢...
爱情是冬天，没有收获，也有抑郁的白雪...
爱情究竟是什么？

你同意吗？

2007-08-20T03:09:00.000-07:00

post something again.i think tml wont be posting cos of something.so please dun get angry and giv mi comments!!!

世界上最远的距离，是两个人睡在一张床上，却是仇敌

世界上最远的距离不是生与死的距离而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你

世界上最远的距离不是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你而是爱到痴迷却不能说我爱你

世界上最远的距离不是我不能说我爱你而是想你痛彻心脾却只能深埋心底

世界上最远的距离不是我不能说我想你而是彼此相爱却不能够在一起

世界上最远的距离不是彼此相爱却不能够在一起而是明知道真爱无敌却装作毫不在意

世界上最远的距离不是树与树的距离而是同根生长的树枝却无法在风中相依

世界上最远的距离不是树枝无法相依而是相互了望的星星却没有交汇的轨迹

世界上最远的距离不是星星之间的轨迹而是纵然轨迹交汇却在转瞬间无处寻觅

世界上最远的距离不是瞬间便无处寻觅而是尚未相遇便注定无法相聚

世界上最远的距离是鱼与飞鸟的距离一个在天,一个却深潜海底..

世界上最远和最近的距离你明白吗？我站在你面前，你却不知道我真正爱你。

2007-08-19T01:36:00.000-07:00

晚上你的手机会关机吗夜深了，你的手机关机吗？
　　　我一向不关机，但是为了什么呢？我不知道，后来我看了一篇文章，我有点明白了，只为了那丝牵挂。我把它拿出来大家看看，深夜，你的手机为谁开？，
关于手机的故事：女孩每天临睡会先关掉手机，然后把它放在写字台自己的相架前，这个习惯从买了手机的时候就这样保持着。女孩有个很要好的男朋友，两个人不见面的时候，就打打电话或发发短信，大家都喜欢这样的联络方式。有一天夜里，男孩很想念女孩子，打了过去却关机，因为女孩子已经睡下了。第二天，男孩对女孩子说：“以后晚上不要关机，好么？我想你的时候找不到你，心会不安。”　从那以后，女孩开始另一种习惯--整夜都不关机。因为害怕他打来自己会因睡死而听不到，女孩夜夜都很警醒，人便日日消瘦。然而，慢慢地，两个人之间还是有了裂痕，女孩很想挽回即临分手的局面，便在一个深夜里给男孩打电话，回答她的是很好听的女声：sorry，你所拨打的电话已关机。于是女孩知道，她的爱情已经关机。很久以后，女孩有了另一场爱情即使两个人在一起的感觉也很好，但女孩怎么也不肯嫁。女孩的心里还是会想起那个男孩的话和那个关机的夜。女孩还是保持着整夜不关机的习惯，只是不再期待它会想起。一天夜里，女孩身染急症，慌乱之中把本想拨给父母的电话拨到了男孩那里。男孩早已睡下，但手机还开着。后来女孩问男孩：“为什么深夜还不关机？” 男孩说：“我怕你夜里有事情找不到我，会心慌。” 女孩最终嫁给了这个男孩夜深了，你的手机关机吗？

很多时候，不知道自己为了谁活着，但是如果你真的肯为她付出，付出就算一点点，那么我相信你已经爱上了她，我也爱我的她，你呢？---siyuan.

2007-08-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

todayy never go out.played maple fer the whole day.here to post a love story.its a sad ending anw.valerie , i keep my promise hor,tml i post also.read it .

有那么一对情侣.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶尔时不时出些坏点子耍耍男孩.男孩很聪明,也很懂事,最主要的一点.幽默感很强.总能在2个人相处中找到可以逗女孩发笑的方式.女孩很喜欢男孩这种乐天派的心情. 他们一直相处不错,女孩对男孩的感觉,淡淡的,说男孩象自己的亲人.
男孩对女孩爱甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每当吵架的时候,男孩都会说是自己不好,自己的错.即使有时候真的不怪他的时候,他也这么说.他不想让女孩生气. 就这样过了5年,男孩仍然非常爱女孩,象当初一样.
有一个周末,女孩出门办事,男孩本来打算去找女孩,但是一听说她有事,就打消了这个念头.他在家里呆了一天,他没有联系女孩,他觉得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打扰他. 谁知女孩在忙的时候,还想着男孩,可是一天没有接到男孩的消息,她很生气.晚上回家后,发了条信息给男孩,话说得很重.甚至提到了分手.当时是晚上12点. 男孩心急如焚,打女孩手机,连续打了3次,都给挂断了.打家里电话没人接,猜想是女孩把电话线拔了.男孩抓起衣服就出门了,他要去女孩家.当时是12点25.
女孩在12点40的时候又接到了男孩的电话,从手机打来的,她又给挂断了. 一夜无话.男孩没有再给女孩打电话
第2天,女孩接到男孩母亲的电话,电话那边声泪俱下.男孩昨晚出了车祸.警方说是车速过快导致刹车不急,撞到了一辆坏在半路的大货车.救护车到的时候,人已经不行了. 女孩心痛到哭不出来,可是再后悔也没有用了.她只能从点滴的回忆中来怀念男孩带给她的欢乐和幸福. 女孩强忍悲痛来到了事故车停车场,她想看看男孩呆过的最后的地方.车已经撞得完全不成样子.方向盘上,仪表盘上,还沾有男孩的血迹.
男孩的母亲把男孩当时身上的遗物给了女孩,钱包,手表,还有那部沾满了男孩鲜血的手机.女孩翻开钱包,里面有她的照片,血渍浸透了大半张. 当女孩拿起男孩的手表的时候,赫然发现,手表的指针停在12点35分附近. 女孩瞬间明白了,男孩在出事后还用最后一丝力气给她打电话,而她自己却因为还在堵气没有接.男孩再也没有力气去拨第2遍电话了,他带着对女孩的无限眷恋和内疚走了.
女孩永远不知道,男孩想和她说的最后一句话是什么.女孩也明白,不会再有人会比这个男孩,更爱她了

珍惜爱你的人，永远也不放开。dun becos of a silly mistake and make ur realtionship end up like that.

2007-08-17T05:25:00.000-07:00

today dun hab the mood to blog anything.just because of the maths test.make mi dl.and now i wan to announce something wor.i think i dun wan to scold any bad words in my life.

i noe some of ue maybe laughing at mi,cos fer mi it maybe impossible.but i wil try my best to do it.thats it.i really need to try my best.dhen will easily accept by gals rite.Lmao.why could i think this way.

anw,please help mi ,i dun wan to scold bad words anymore.not sure still wan to write what.the mood of today is still same as yesterday.OH ya.anybody gt extra panadoll at home?gib mi if ue dun wan , i need it.

and i think yesterday i took too much panadoll as a result that i saw ppl flying around in school.its shiok anyway.i like feeling.

and now i wanna try to take 10 panadoll at a time,i wan to see how is the feeling.anyone wanna try wib mi?and they said that if take in 10 at a time,can die?wahhs,really mahhs?hahas.i wan to try.die better , dhen i cant feel the pain in my heart anymore.

ppl around mi are all so happy.

nothing write liao.maybe fer sat and sunday will be posting love story.valerie okay mahhs?reb to read everyday wor.

也许我错了，逃避最好吧。

2007-08-16T06:39:00.000-07:00

今天听了不能说的秘密，突然想起了我和她的事。。很多很多的想法，没有办法和别人说。说白了，我可能在和她的感情中很自私，自私的爱和被爱，当一切结束的时候才知道这一切是空的，没有任何的意义，只是一种戏，我演给我自己看。

在她的心中，我不知道我是什么角色，可能一点也不重要吧，我不知道，她有权利不和我在一起，我也没有话说，说句实话，我发现我自己现在越来越怪，不知道为什么，有时候就会不说话，静静的，看着电脑发呆。

也许，逃避就能离开这一切，但是我又能逃避到什么时候呢？我的人能逃，心怎么也逃不掉，有一种爱叫放弃，但是也有一种爱，我现在的爱，是放弃不了得，你的心里，想逃，但是你的脑子却不时的想她。

一辈子能有一个真正爱的人就足够了，但是一个能真正让我爱的人，现在和我势不两立，为什么这一切发生在我的身上？为什么我会在SEC1 问XL她叫什么名字，给我她的号码，为什么？我不能就这样走开，当她伤心的时候，我却无能为力，因为我不是爱的人，我给不了她想要的，她的关心我也感受不到。

我想你的时候，不能发信息给你，只能一个人哭。谁能为我擦掉眼泪。我的眼泪为你而流，而你。。如果上天能让你重生，希望你能感受到我的痛，也让我改变性格，就这样爱你一辈子，永远不改变，不为了任何事而改变，这是个愿望，不能实现的愿望。

我想做你喜欢的人，就这样默默守候着你，不让你受一点伤。

如果上天给我多一次机会，我会和你重新开始，没有任何人来打扰。

2007-08-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

there is a kind of love,called give up.hope all of ue like this post.and please tag mi after reading.its very meaningful.spend some times to read it.

有一种爱，叫放手
曾经天真的以为不管时间和空间的距离有多长多远，
感情一定会恒久不变，因为爱是没有理由的.......
爱不能成为牵绊，所以要选择放手，
从容的让彼此走出彼此的世界。
凡事到极至，伤也会痛。
其实爱过就会懂，
彼此个性的太过坚强终究会是一起生活的阴影。
昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹。
两人能携手走完整人生固然美好，
可陪上了一段也应心存感激了。
爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊，
只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好。
相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘，
缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！
还有一种爱，叫离开
曾经以为自己的爱情能够长久，
曾经以为真心的付出就能够换来幸福。
其实错了... ...
爱情给的唯一的东西就是背叛，无情的背叛！
曾经是那么相爱的两个人，转眼陌路。
留下的是残缺不全的记忆和心痛。
没有想到结局会是这样，曾经的海誓山盟，
曾经的天长地久转眼都成了飞灰。
还记得他口中的永远，让我恍若梦中，
但梦醒的时候，才发觉他早已离开。
曾经在心中千万次的乞求他回来，回到我的身边，
回来修补我早已残缺不全的心，
但我知道那不可能。
经常惊醒于午夜梦回的黑暗中，我的心都好痛，
是思念一个人的疼痛，看着夜空中的星星，
想着远方属于你的夜，

你还好吗？一直都快乐吗？
没有我在身边是不是
有另外一个人去关心你，爱你呢？
我现在唯一的愿望只是希望再见你一面，
但我又怕见你，怕见到你，
我的心又会再一次的被捏碎。
我只有对自己说不要再去想你，不要再想了，
虽然你的影子从未离开过。
生活还是要过的。
其实有种爱叫作离开。
再见了，我的爱人。。。
如果你也是和我一样的话，朋友，
我希望你看开点，
离开不全是坏事，雨过总会天晴的。

thats the post lerh.tag pleaase.=)

2007-08-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

waHHHH!!.finally gt time fer to blog today l0h..siians.today actually dun hab any energy to blog anything cos from last nite 3 am . i am sicked like siao.REALLY REALLY SIAO.

today morning.nose bleeding.dhen reach sschool siao siao liiao.some times i feel ppl is flying around.but hor,i also nv take drugs leiis.why like that derh . please please help mi.i dun wan sneeze or what. so jialat.

went to j8 to take my new bag.AGAIN , she said that the delievery man is sick?wth.ii wan to wear that bag lahhs.its nice .

wahhs lan.the ppl that msning mi now.please gib mi a break to finish this blog.oh ya.i find i fall in love wif some one in my class.that is ting he.really,he is so shuaii.wahhs.please ting he,after reading dun kill mi.

anyway.now still dun hab energy to blog anything,nt sure if tonight sleep wan to on air-con.later fall sick again how?valerie.ma fan ni lerhs.i need panadoll.

anw.is this exam week?i dont noe leiis.okay lah.really very sick now.cant blog anything more.

是心在变，还是人在变？

2007-08-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

aiya.almost forgot to blog today.lolls.just wan to blog something.its very meanful to mi,cos mi and her .. hais.so this is the story.read it yea?

你不再爱我，当爱你已成为你的负担，当相爱已是一种痛苦，那么，我选择放弃。放弃你，是因为爱你.因为爱你! 当爱已成往事，又何必苦苦追寻？强求得不来幸福，强求只能拉大你我的裂痕，只能加剧你我的痛楚。如果你真的想走，我无言，只能任你离去。

曾经以为你是风筝，我手中握着那根线，无论你飞向何方，我最终都是你的归属。现在终于明白虽然我渴望“天长地久”，但如果这只是一种奢求，那我不如只求“曾经拥有”。曾经拥有过你的爱，这已足够。

因为有一种爱，叫做放弃。放弃不是无私的奉献。放弃你，这不仅是对你的爱，更是对我自己的呵护。放弃你，我会伤心，但我不会后悔。让你从我的生命中消失，是因为“长痛不如短痛”。当我容颜尽老、行将就木，我依然不会后悔。因为爱过你。因为爱你，所以希望你快乐。

有人说这个世界不会有永恒的爱情。你我之间，如果连短暂的爱情也无法存在，不如放开彼此。爱你，就该让你去追寻你的幸福。当你快乐时，我也会快乐。因为你的一切，我都在意。如果你要离开我，我不会怪你，只能怪我自己，怪自己太爱你。也许是我过分的宠溺让你习惯享受，也许是我过分的放任让你没有责任，也许是我过分的爱怜让你压力重重……

只怪你我有缘无份。当你想要离去，请别管我，你只需告诉我，你不再爱我，你要走。我一定会让你走，不会乞求你留下，哪怕听见自己心碎的声音。我知道，有一种爱叫做放弃，那是对你最深的爱.

thats the end.

2007-08-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

valerie,ur wish is granted.WAHAH.posting a love story or something abt love.its the same lahhs.here it is:

朋友告诉我鱼的记忆只有7秒，7秒之后它就不记得过去的事情，一切又都变成新的。

所以在那小小的鱼缸里它永远不觉得无聊，因为7秒一过，每一个游过的地方又变成了新的天地。它可以永远活在新鲜中。

我宁愿是只鱼，7秒一过就什么都忘记，曾经遇到的人，曾经做过的事就都可以烟消云散，可我不是鱼，所以我无法忘记我爱的人，我无法忘记牵挂的苦，我无法忘记相思的痛。。。。。。
鱼看不到相爱的人流泪，可却可以感觉到对方的心痛，这一生，我们都无法做只自由的鱼，所以你也无法感觉到，在你离开我的时侯，我的那种心痛。正如我觉察不到你爱我一样。。。。。。

爱一个人可以多久？

如果我是鱼，我可以爱你7秒。。。。。。

7秒之后我又爱上了你，就这样爱你一辈子。用鱼的方式。

我在眨眼睛，你呢？在我眨眼睛的时侯，你还好吗？我想你了.于是我不停的眨眼，因为我不想让泪水流出来。原来鱼也有思念的时候，也有痛的感觉。做一条鱼，在水里多好，可以自由的为了爱情流眼泪，不会被看到伤痛。

我常问自已，为了爱你，我到底在失去什么，原来，我失去的是自已。而更重要的是我更愿意这样继续下去，因为我不愿没有你。

我现在可以看到阳光的灿烂，可以看到春天的明媚，可以看到你害羞的脸。如果有一天，我只能看到黑暗，我多希望，我真的是一只鱼，因为可以一直睁着眼睛面对你而不用担心被你看到伤悲。

我可以选择吗？

如果，上天给我们一次做鱼的机会，我希望，你可以感觉到我的心痛。。。。。

如果，上天给我们一次做鱼的机会，我希望，我可以爱你8秒。。。。…………

thats derh story lerhh.hahas.ue like it?

i dun wan to sae anything abt her . cos i scare ii will cry again.<3 friends.

2007-08-11T06:32:00.000-07:00

lolls.inside toy r us.
sword man.
write by water.
writting.DOTS.
completed.
yuansheng derh foot extra
ZZZ.qq anyhow take.
solo kiia.
solo kiia number 2.

i also dun noe what am i looking.
writting.yay

2007-08-11T06:28:00.000-07:00

hellos . 66th post .

today actually dun wan to go out derh.but ping pong ask mi if i can pei him to orchard to repair his phone.and qin quan is also going.so i said ok and 3 of us went to orchard.

reached orchard , nothing to do while waiting our number to be called . waited fer more than 30min dhen ping pong passed his phone to the sony shop dhen we dun noe what to do fer afternoon.

qin quan said he want to see school bag at bugis,dhen we went to bugis to see bag wib him.but due to some reason , we didnt really see bag.but yuan sheng bought a pants fer himself.hahas.looks nice when he wear it..

after that,we wanted to go home ,, but the timing is still early,so i suggested to go vivo.well,they also agree wib what i say.so we took MRT and went to vivo.hahas.today went to 3 place all very far derh.

window shopping fer a while , and played more than 1 hour in the TOY R US shop.hahas.its fun.

thats all fer today ,thanks.~<3

2007-08-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

hellos.this is my 65th post.haha.faster reach 100 dhen i happy.

talk about today,didnt sleep last nite , so was very sleepy,went to j8 to meet ting he around 8am, but he didnt show up,the reason is he overslept.omg..meet him around 9am.went to the bbq place again to look fer the Memory card/.

but after we serched fer so long,the memory card still has not been found.ting he looks a bit sad and disappointed.just wan to tell ue , ting he , 久的不去，新的不来嘛！.correct or not.next time dun buy nokia derh things loh.

ting he,thanks fer watching 不能说的秘密,i noe both of us want to watch again.wait til i got money okay?dhen we go watch again,cos its really nice and touching.ue still reb during BBQ what i tell ue about relationship?

i noe that mi and her its impossible lerh.now i hate her,she dun like mi 2.i hab nothing to say dhen.maybe just like the movie,爱你也是一种幸福吧.能遇见你,已经是不可思议了.

命运只能让我们相见,却不能相爱.hahs.now i finally understand lerhs.

can see that many ppl are changing thier attitude towards life.i noe that as the time keep passing by,ppl will change,attitude will change.but i just wan some of ue in the school ,stay as what ue are now,cos it is really good that i hab a group of friends just like ue all.

okay lahhs.thats all fer today.<3 all of my friends.

2007-08-09T08:23:00.001-07:00

qin quan,yong rui.yuan sheng.yee keat
4 of us.from left,ting he,yee keat,yuan sheng,mi.
all of us..lolls.so many ppl . lazy to write all the names.
not draw one.guess how its make??LOlls.
the helicopter that coming back from the national stadium.
the fire work behind a building.LOlls.like a sun
from left,yuan sheng,mi,qin quan,yong rui.ting he.
lolls.my head so big.then beside mi is qq,then the behind derh is yong rui

mi,qin quan,yong rui.act cool niia.LOlls
all of us again.LOlls the boys behind extra siia.HAHA

2007-08-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

finally reached home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg.so damn tired.well today BBQ,its really really fun. i really enjoy it.and all thanks to the ppl that went fer the BBQ!!! YAY!!!

Hahahx.we took many picture and also we make a lot of joke during the BBQ.all cold joke.

JESSIN>ue are not really diguesting .haha.what ever i say to ue , its jokes.dun take it so serious.
and ur 2/1 friend issh cute also.hahax.next time we gt any event ask her come lohhs.its okay derh.hope ue enjoy the BBQ.

HAILI>thanks fer making up the BBQ.the things that ue bought.the food is really nice . SATAY and the chicken wings.nice nice.and hor,stay happy , i noe that case make ue very angry and its okay derh since ue report the police.houe enjoy the BBQ also.!

SHUWEN>hahas.ue vvery cute niia.lOlls.hope ue enjoy the BBQ.cos ue not really high during the BBQ.hope ue may understand what i tell ue during the BBQ.dun be upset because of family problem.stayy happy lahhs.just like ur pM.hOpe ue enjoy the BBq.

CAMILIA>seems that ue really like children.ue can be a good mother next time.Lolls.err.next time hor,please talk more during the BBQ lahhs hor.hahas.eat more also .so skinny.Hope ue enjoy the BBQ.

QINGLI>next time wan to scold mi hor.dun scold half way dhen come and beat mi lah . ue loser.HAHAX.and dun get shock again when i scare ue.Hope ue enjoy the BBQ also.thanks fer coming!

AIHUII>lolls.ue wear until very chio niia.HAHA.err.can see that ue really care fer friends.COS ting he lost this memory card dhen ue nervos.HHA.stay happy!Hope ue enjoy the BBQ.

Ting HE>nbm lahhs.lost the memory no big fuck.i noe that when ppl are finding the card fer ue dhen i talk a lot crap.i noe that.but tml i promise ue i will go to that place and find fer ue since my necklace is lost also..T.T nvm lahhs.and thanks fer meeting up mi today . AND going seragoon wif mi also.THANK ue.Hope ue enjoy the BBQ.!

YUANSHENG>dun wan write ping pong as ur name lahhs.nt so polite lehhs.HHA.eat more eat more.and thank ue fer helping also to start the fire.thanks lots lots!hope ue enjoy the BBQ!

YEEKEAT+BRENDON>thanks , ue 2 fer showing up fer this BBQ.more ppl come dhen more fun mahhs.LOLls.hope ue 2 enjoy the BBQ.

QINQUAN+YONGRUI>2 gays.lOlls.SHOW ON STAGE MAN!haha . support ue lahhs hors.LOlls.and QQ stop putting grass on my hair next time ue idiot!

thats all fer today.Loll!THE BBQ is really really fun.we did many many things fer today.<3 ALL OF UE.FRIENDS FOREVER..